"That does not answer. If one’s country or business demand the man, the
woman must wait—"
"Yes."
Romney laughed. Bamban waited for him to speak.
"You keep them behind lattices. You do not give them the breath of
life. You feel that they belong to a man’s weakness rather than his
strength. You do not see that the girl is equal to the boy; that the
two are one so far as the future is concerned. You think that all women
are wanton, unless they are repressed."
"We do not consider that women belong to the larger affairs of man’s
life," said Bamban.
Romney laughed again.
"That’s why as a nation, the Chinese Empire is ninety-seven hundredths
putrified," said he.
There was not a look in Bamban’s clearly-formed face to denote if the
depth and delicacy of his regard were shaken.
"You are the messenger of our country," he said.
"Hardly that—a messenger of the remaining three per cent," said Romney.
*9*
The next morning he went to the court of the Consulate, without anything
in his hands. The night had been so rough for him that he was uncentred
enough to seek the woman for a moment—just to look upon her, to ease off
the mighty ache across his chest. He had become very humble from
wanting her. Last night he had been touched with the coldness and
hatred that seemed close to destroying the attraction between them, but
the emptiness and irony of all life without her, had come in the hours
following the talk with Bamban. The thing that he had called a taint
diminished to one of the minor mysteries of womanhood, and Anna Erivan,
brave enough not to quibble about the wonder of their meeting, and of
spiritual force to forget her own longing and passion, stood forth with
augmented light and lure.
As he waited a mere moment within the gate of the court, it seemed that
he would die if she did not come quickly. The pain that he had learned
to identify with her in moments of their separation in presence or
thought—a pain that began in the pit of his left arm and stretched to
the centre of his breast—awakened to burning and agony in that moment
before he heard her step. Words were on his lips to say that he loved
her, that nothing mattered but that to him, that he wanted to die if he
could not have her, that her own terms were his, that he could not take
his thoughts much less his presence again from the place where she
abode—a rush of confession and revelation altogether unlike the man that
others knew or that he had hitherto known himself.
She had been in the Forward Room. He heard the door and her step in the
living-room; then at last she came to the door of the court, and all
that he could say was:
"Are you all right?"
"Yes."
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