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After the scene sketched in the preceding pages, Perdita had
contemplated an entire change in the manners and conduct of Raymond.
She expected freedom of communication, and a return to those habits of
affectionate intercourse which had formed the delight of her life. But
Raymond did not join her in any of her avocations. He transacted the
business of the day apart from her; he went out, she knew not whither.
The pain inflicted by this disappointment was tormenting and keen. She
looked on it as a deceitful dream, and tried to throw off the
consciousness of it; but like the shirt of Nessus, it clung to her very
flesh, and ate with sharp agony into her vital principle. She possessed
that (though such an assertion may appear a paradox) which belongs to
few, a capacity of happiness. Her delicate organization and creative
imagination rendered her peculiarly susceptible of pleasurable emotion.
The overflowing warmth of her heart, by making love a plant of deep
root and stately growth, had attuned her whole soul to the reception of
happiness, when she found in Raymond all that could adorn love and
satisfy her imagination. But if the sentiment on which the fabric of
her existence was founded, became common place through participation,
the endless succession of attentions and graceful action snapt by
transfer, his universe of love wrested from her, happiness must depart,
and then be exchanged for its opposite. The same peculiarities of
character rendered her sorrows agonies; her fancy magnified them, her
sensibility made her for ever open to their renewed impression; love
envenomed the heart-piercing sting. There was neither submission,
patience, nor self-abandonment in her grief; she fought with it,
struggled beneath it, and rendered every pang more sharp by resistance.
Again and again the idea recurred, that he loved another. She did him
justice; she believed that he felt a tender affection for her; but give
a paltry prize to him who in some life-pending lottery has calculated
on the possession of tens of thousands, and it will disappoint him more
than a blank. The affection and amity of a Raymond might be
inestimable; but, beyond that affection, embosomed deeper than
friendship, was the indivisible treasure of love. Take the sum in its
completeness, and no arithmetic can calculate its price; take from it
the smallest portion, give it but the name of parts, separate it into
degrees and sections, and like the magician’s coin, the valueless gold
of the mine, is turned to vilest substance. There is a meaning in the
eye of love; a cadence in its voice, an irradiation in its smile, the
talisman of whose enchantments one only can possess; its spirit is
elemental, its essence single, its divinity an unit. The very heart and
soul of Raymond and Perdita had mingled, even as two mountain brooks
that join in their descent, and murmuring and sparkling flow over
shining pebbles, beside starry flowers; but let one desert its primal
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