The Laughing Mill, and Other StoriesHawthorne, Julian
Philosophy
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
Hawthorne, Julian
American fiction -- 19th century
"It was the last
time I ever kissed her," said he.
I said nothing; my sympathy with my hapless friend was keen. Yet I must
confess to a secret sensation of relief that there was to be no more
kissing. It was natural, under the circumstances, that Calbot--poor
fellow!--should speak recklessly; but I am a bachelor, a confirmed
bachelor, and such descriptions distress me; they make me restless,
wakeful, and unhappy. Yes, I was glad we had had the last of them.
"It all passed very quickly, and a third person would perhaps have seen
no change in us; probably the change was more inward than outward, after
all. It was peculiar that we, both of us, by a tacit understanding,
forbore to speak to each other of this dismal mystery that had so
suddenly grown up between us. It was too real, and at the same time too
hopeless; but to have acknowledged it would have been to pronounce it
hopeless indeed. We would not do that yet. We sat apart, quietly and
conventionally making observations on ordinary topics, as though we had
been newly introduced. And yet my betrothal gift was round her neck,
moving as she breathed; and we loved each other, and our hearts were
breaking. Oh, it is cruel!"
In exclaiming thus, my friend (being at the farther end of the room at
the time) struck his foot sharp against the leg of a small antique table
which stood against the wall. Like many other valuable things, the
table was fragile, and the leg broke. The table tipped over, and a vase
(the ancestral vase, containing the elixir of life), fell off to the
floor.
Calbot--I think it was much to his credit--found room amidst his proper
anguish to be sincerely distressed at this accident. On picking up the
vase, however, he immediately exclaimed that it was unbroken. This was
fortunate: the table could be mended, but the vase, not to speak of its
contents, would have been irreplaceable. Calbot put it carefully on the
study table, beside the MS.; set the invalid table in a corner; and
then, to my great satisfaction, drew up a chair to the fire, and
continued his sad story in a civilised posture.
VII.
"I did not stay long after this; and ours was a strange parting that
evening, if our hearts could have been seen. We felt it a relief to
separate, and yet the very relief was a finer kind of pain. We knew
not what had befallen us; but, perhaps, we both had a hope, then, that
another day would somehow set things right.
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