Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young men -- Conduct of life -- Fiction
“I should be all kinds of a trimmer to take advantage of your goodness.
No, I must go--” The gay warmth evaporated from her countenance as
abruptly as though it had been congealed in a sudden icy breath; she
sat motionless, upright, enveloping him in the bright resentment of her
gaze.
“And I must ask you to forgive me for... for this morning,” he stumbled
hastily on.
The resentment burned into a clear flame of angry contempt. “'For this
morning!' because I kissed you?”
He made a vehement gesture of denial. “Oh, no!” But she would not allow
him to finish. “But I did,” she announced in a hard, determined voice.
“It isn't necessary for you to be polite; I don't care a damn for
that sickening sort of thing. I did, and you are properly and modestly
retreating. I believe that you think I am--'designing,' isn't that
the word? that you might have to marry me. A kiss, I am to realize, is
something sacred. Bah! you make me ill, like almost everything else in
life.
“If you think for a minute that it was anything more than the expression
of a passing impulse you are beyond words. And, if it had been more,
you--you violet, I wouldn't marry you; I wouldn't marry any man, ever!
ever! ever! I might have gone to Italy with you, but probably come home
with some one else--will that get into your pretty prejudices?”
“If you had gone to Italy with me,” he declared sullenly, “you would
never have come home with anybody else.”
“That sort of thing has been dismissed to the smaller rural towns and
the cheap melodramas; it's no longer considered elevated to talk like
that, but only pitiful. You will start next on 'God's noblest creation,'
and purity, and the females of your family. Don't you know, haven't you
been told, that the primitive religious rubbish about marriage has been
laughed out of existence? Did you dream that I wanted to _keep_ you?
or that I would allow you to keep me after the thing had got stale?
It makes me cold all over to be so frightfully misunderstood. Oh, its
unthinkable! Fi, to kiss you! wasn't it loose of me?”
Her contemptuous periods stung him in a thousand minute places. “I told
you,” he retorted hotly, “that I wanted to make money; I don't want it
given to me; it's for my wedding.”
“Of course, how stupid of me not to have guessed--the lips sacred to
her,” her own trembled ever so slightly, but her scornful attitude, her
direct, bright gaze, were maintained, “A knight errant adventuring for
a village queen with her handkerchief in his sleeve and tempted by the
inevitable Kundry.”
He settled himself to weathering this feminine storm; he owed her all
the relief to be found in words. “I wanted the money to go West,” he
particularized further. “There's a position waiting for me--”
“It's all very chaste,” she told him, “but terribly commonplace. I think
that I don't care to hear the details.” She addressed herself to what
remained of the luncheon. “Have some more sauce,” she advised coolly,
then rang. “The pudding, Jane,” she directed.
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