The Preacher tried to comfort Tom, who stared at him as though he did
not recognise him at first, and then slowly began, “Go away, Preacher,
I don’t want to see or talk to you now. It’s all a swindle and a lie.
There is no God!”
“Tom, Tom!” groaned the Preacher.
“I tell you I mean it,” he continued. “I don’t want any more of God or
His heaven. I don’t want to see God. For if I should see Him, I’d shake
my fist in His face and ask him where His almighty power was when my
poor little baby was screamin’ for help while that damned black beast
was tearin’ her to pieces! Many and many a time I’ve praised God when I
read the Bible there where it said, not a sparrow falleth to the ground
without His knowledge, and the very hairs of our head are numbered.
Well, where was He when my little bird was flutterin’ her broken
bleedin’ wings in the claws of that stinkin’ baboon,--damn him to
everlastin’ hell!--It’s all a swindle I tell you!”
The Preacher was watching him now with silent pity and tenderness.
“What a lie it all is!” Tom repeated. “Scratch my name off the church
roll. I ain’t got many more days here, but I won’t lie. I’m not a
hypocrite. I’m going to meet God cursin’ Him to His face!”
The Preacher slipped his arm around the old soldier’s neck, and smoothed
the tangled hair back from his forehead as he said brokenly, “Tom, I
love you! My whole soul is melted in sympathy and pity for you!”
The stricken man looked up into the face of his friend, saw his tears
and felt the warmth of his love flood his heart, and at last he burst
into tears.
“Oh! Preacher, Preacher! you’re a good friend I know, but I’m done,
I can’t live any more! Every minute, day and night, I ’ll hear them
awful screams--her a callin’ me for help! I can see her lyin’ out there
in the woods all night alone moanin’ and bleedin’!”
His breast heaved and he paused as if in reverie. And then he sprang up,
his face livid and convulsed with volcanic passions, that half strangled
him while he shrieked, “Oh! if I only had him here before me now, and
God Almighty would give me strength with these hands to tear his breast
open and rip his heart out!--I--could--eat--it--like--a--wolf!”
* * * * *
When they reached the cemetery the next day and the body was about to
be lowered into the grave, Tom suddenly spied old Uncle Reuben Worth
leaning on his spade by the edge of the crowd. Uncle Reuben was the
grave digger of the town and the only negro present.
“Wait!” said Tom raising his hand. “Don’t put her in that grave! A
nigger dug it. I can’t stand it.” He turned to a group of old soldier
comrades standing by and said, “Boys, humour an old broken man once
more. You ’ll dig another grave for me, won’t you? It won’t take long.
The folks can go home that don’t want to stay. I ain’t got no home to go
to now but this graveyard.”
His comrades filled up the grave that Uncle Reuben had dug, and opened
a new one on the other side of the graves where slept his other loved
ones.
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