Rotha found her room too cold to stay in, after the first heat of her
wrath had passed off. The only warm place that she knew of, beside her
aunt's dressing room, was the parlour; and after a little hesitation and
shivering, she softly crept down the stairs. The warm, luxurious place
was empty, of people, that is; and before the glowing grate Rotha sat
down on the rug and looked at the situation. Or she looked at that and
the room together; the latter made her incensed. It was so full of
luxury. The soft plush carpet, the thick rug on which she was crouching;
how they glowed warm and rich in the red shine of the fiery grate; how
beautiful the crimson ground was, and how dainty the drab tints of the
flowers running over it. How stately the curtains fell to the floor with
their bands of drab and crimson; and the long mirror between them,
redoubling all the riches reflected in it. What a magnificent extension
table, really belonging in the dining room, but doing duty now as a large
centre table, only it was shoved up in one corner; and upon it the gas
fixture stood, with its green glass shaft and its cut glass shade full of
bunches of grapes. Nothing else was on the table; not a book; not a
trinket; and so all the rest of the room was bare of everything _but_
furniture. The furniture was elegant; but the chairs stood round the
sides of the room with pitiless regularity and seemed waiting for
somebody that would never come. Empty riches! nothing else. At Mrs.
Mowbray's Rotha was in another world, socially and humanly. Books swarmed
from the shelves and lay on every table; pictures hung on the walls and
stood on the mantelpieces; here and there some lovely statuette delighted
the eye by its beauty or the mind by its associations; flowers were sure
to be in a glass or a dish somewhere; and all over there were traces of
travel and of cultivation, in bits of marble, or bits of bronze, or
photographs, or relics, telling of various ages and countries and
nationalities. Here, in Mrs. Busby's handsome rooms, the pretty hanging
lamps were exceedingly new, and they were the only bronze to be seen.
Rotha studied it all and made these comparisons for a while, in a vague,
purposeless reverie, while she was getting warm; but then her thoughts
began to come to a point. Everything and everybody in this house was
utterly unsympathetic to her; animate or inanimate; was this her home? In
no sense of the word. Had not her aunt just informed her, in effect, that
she had no home; that if she lived to grow up she must make her own way
and earn her own bread, or have none. Antoinette would grow up to all
this luxury, and in all this luxury; while she would be penniless, and
homeless. Had she brought this upon herself? Well, she might have been
more conciliating; but in her heart of hearts Rotha did not wish she had
been other than she had been. A home or friends to be gained only by
subserviency and truckling, she did not covet.
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