It was an infinite blessing to the child, whose heart was very sore, and
who stood in need of very judicious handling. And somewhat to Mr. Digby's
surprise, it was not a bore to himself. The pleasure of ministering is
always a pleasure, especially when the need is very great; it is also a
pleasure to excite and to receive affection; and he presently saw, with
some astonishment, that he was doing this also. Certainly it was not a
thing in the circumstances to be astonished at; and it moved Mr. Digby
so, simply because he was so far from thinking of himself in his present
plan of action. All the pleasanter perhaps it was, when he saw that the
forlorn girl was hanging upon him all the dependence of a very trusting
nature, and giving to him all the wealth of a passionate power of loving.
This came by degrees.
At first, in a strange place and with new surroundings and utterly
changed life, the girl was exceedingly forlorn. The days passed in
alternations of violent outbreaks of grief and fits of seeming apathy,
which I suppose were simply nature's reaction from overstrain and
exhaustion. The violence she rarely shewed in Mr. Digby's presence; Rotha
was taking her first lessons in self-command; nevertheless he saw the
work that was going on, knew it must be, for a time, and wisely abstained
from interference with it. "There is a time to weep"; and he knew it was
now; comfort would be mockery. He was satisfied that Rotha should have so
much diversion from her sorrow as his presence occasioned; that she
should be obliged to meet him at meals, and to behave then with a certain
degree of outward calm, and the necessary attention to little matters;
all useful in a sort of slow, unnoticed way. Otherwise for a few days he
let her alone. But then he began to give her things to do. Lessons were
taken up again, by degrees multiplied, until Rotha's time was well filled
with occupation. It went very hard at first. Rotha even ventured on a
little passive rebellion; even declared she could not study. Mr. Digby
shewed her that she could; helped her, led her on, and let her see
finally that he expected certain things of her, which she could not
neglect without coming to an open rupture with him. That was impossible.
Rotha bent her will to do what was required of her; and from that time
the difficulty of Mr. Digby's task was over. She began soon to be
interested again in what she was about and to make excellent progress.
Then Mr. Digby would put himself in a hammock on the piazza or out under
a great walnut-tree, and make Rotha read to him, and incite her to talk
of what she read; or he would give her lessons in drawing; both occasions
of the utmost gratification to Rotha; and when the scorching sun had got
low down over the Palisades, he would take her in an easy little vehicle
and go for a long drive. So one way and another they came to be together
all the time. And after the first miserable days were past, and Rotha had
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