coming back, was all I wanted." But this was only a moment of passing weakness. At Berlin her spirits revived; for her vital interests were satisfied, and she spent some days in inspecting the hospitals and other benevolent institutions. On July 31 she reached Kaiserswerth. "I could hardly believe I was there," she wrote in her diary. "With the feeling with which a pilgrim first looks on the Kedron, I saw the Rhine, dearer to me than the Nile." She stayed a fortnight with the Pastor and his wife and the Deaconesses, studying their institutions. "Left Kaiserswerth," says the diary (August 13), "feeling so brave as if nothing could ever vex me again."[46] She rejoined her friends at Düsseldorf. "They stayed at Ghent actually for me to finish my MS." (August 17). "Finished my MS. They read it. Mr. Bracebridge corrected it and sent it off" (August 19). Next day they returned to England. The manuscript was of the pamphlet describing "The Institution of Kaiserswerth on the Rhine," which was issued anonymously soon after Miss Nightingale's return.[47] Some notice of the pamphlet will be found in a later chapter in connection with her longer sojourn at Kaiserswerth in 1851. It was printed by the inmates of the Ragged School at Westminster in which she was interested. She described in it the work of the Deaconesses, and ended with an appeal to Englishwomen to go and do likewise. The fire burnt within her, and she returned home more than ever resolved to consecrate her life to the service of the sick and sorrowful. [46] In the Album of the Pastor's eldest daughter, Miss Nightingale left this inscription:-- "Vier Dinge, Gott, habe ich dir zu bieten, Die sich in all deinen Schatzkammern nicht finden: Meine Nichtigkeit, meine traurige Armut, Meine verderbliche Sünde, meine ernste Reue. Nimm diese Gaben an und nimm den Geber hin. Kaiserswerth, den 13 August 1850. Fl. N., die mit überfließendem Herzen sich immer der Güte all ihrer Freunde in lieben Kaiserswerth erinnern wird. Ich bin ein Gast gewesen, und ihr habt mir beherbergt" (_Eine Heldin unter Helden_, 1912, p. 45). [47] Bibliography A, No. 1. V