England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Short stories, English
"I will speak the truth," said Betty, giving him her other hand. "You
love me--and I love you, and we are going to be miserable. Yes--I will
speak. Dear, I can't do it. Not even for you. I used to think I thought
I could. I was bitter. I think I wanted to be revenged on life and God
and everything. I thought I didn't believe in God, but I wanted to spite
Him all the same. But when you came--after that day in the porch--when
you came and talked to me about all the good and beautiful things--why,
then I knew that I really did believe in them, and I began to love you
because you had believed them all the time, and because.... And I didn't
try to make you love me--after that day in the porch--at least, not very
much--oh, I do want to speak the truth! I used to try so _not_ to try.
I--I did want you to love me, though; I didn't want you to love anyone
else. I wanted you to love me just enough to make you happy, and not
enough to make you miserable. And so long as you didn't know you loved
me it was all right: and when you caught me last night I knew that you
would know, and it would be all over. You made up your mind to teach me
that there are better things in the world than love--truth and honour
and--and--things like that. And you've taught it me. It was a duel, and
you've won."
"And you meant to teach me that love is stronger than anything in the
world. And you have won too."
"Yes," she said, "we've both won. That's the worst of it--or the best."
"What is to become of us?" he said. "Oh, my dear--what are we to do? Do
you forgive me? If you are right, I must be wrong--but I can't see
anything now except that I want you so."
"I'm glad you loved me enough to be silly," she said; "but, oh, my dear,
how glad I am that I love you too much to let you."
"But what are we to do?"
"Do? Nothing. Don't you see we've taught each other everything we know.
We've given each other everything we can give. Isn't it good to love
like this--even if this has to be all?"
"It's all very difficult," he said; "but everything shall be as you
choose, only somehow I think it's worse for me than for you. I loved you
before--and now I adore you. I seem to have made a saint of you--but
you've made me a man."
* * * * *
One wishes with all one's heart that that lunatic would die. The
situation is, one would say--impossible. Yet the lovers do not find it
so. They work together, and parish scandal has almost ceased to patter
about their names. There is a subtle pleasure for both in the
ceremonious courtesy with which ever since that day they treat each
other. It contrasts so splendidly with the living flame upon each
heart-altar. So far the mutual passion has improved the character of
each. All the same, one wishes that the lunatic would die--for she is
not so much of a saint as he thinks her, and he is more of a man than
she knows.
CINDERELLA
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