British -- France -- Fiction; French -- England -- Fiction; Love stories
It was a hot, still day and a bee was droning lazily about the Rectory
drawing-room, flying out into the sunlight and in again to the bowl of
mignonette that stood on a table near the window; and the bee made the
day more still. It had been strange to find herself thinking of Racine
as she waited for Toppie. Nothing so trivial and intimate as a bee could
be imagined in any play of Racine’s; yet its soft drone had accompanied
her sense of a pause, of an ominous interlude, like the pause before a
scene where the heroine was to enter with some quiet, conclusive word.
It was, perhaps, because of this association of ideas that Toppie, when
she entered, had looked to her like the Racine heroine, like a creature
delicate and austere, dimly conscious of an impending doom. There was
fear in Toppie’s face as it found her there. Alix saw its white gleam
mastered, resolutely veiled, while, at the same moment, the full
security of Giles’s assurance was brought warmly home to her by Toppie’s
encircling arms, by a new note of emotion in her voice as she said,
kissing her, “Dear, dear child.”
Toppie was changed; but it could not be because of her. It was her
father’s illness that had changed her and Giles had spoken the whole
truth; but all the same, involuntarily, she found herself saying, while
Toppie’s arms were still around her: “Are you glad to have me back?” And
she heard that her voice trembled in speaking.
Whatever the fear had been, Toppie had mastered it. She held her by the
shoulders and looked at her, smiling, and said: “So glad, dear little
Alix, that I feel we ought to keep you always.” Then she held her off
and looked her up and down, still smiling, and added: “But it isn’t a
child any longer. It’s an almost grown-up young person.”
It was strange to feel herself, all reassured as she was, wanting
dreadfully to cry; but Alix, too, was an adept at mastering emotion, and
she said, taking off her hat so that Toppie should see all the changes:
“Do you like my hair?”
“I like it very much.” Toppie kept her hand, turning her round. “I like
seeing your forehead, such a gentle, thoughtful forehead. I like that
big black bow at your neck.”
“That is a _jeune fille_ bow—a bow of transition,” smiled Alix. “It is
to be there while the hair grows long enough to make a knot.”
“I like it all,” said Toppie.
They sat down on the sofa side by side, Toppie still holding her hand,
and then she said: “Toppie, I had not realized from your letter that
your father was so ill.”
Toppie looked at her in silence for a moment and, slowly, her eyes
filled with tears. “He is going to leave me, Alix,” she said.
It was her father, then. Alix could not but feel the deep, selfish
relief. “Oh, you must hope,” she said.
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