British -- France -- Fiction; French -- England -- Fiction; Love stories
The old life flowed round her again, outwardly the same, inwardly so
altered. She had been, she saw it, like nothing but a glass of _eau
sucrée_ when she had first come to Heathside;—or if that was a simile
too insipid for even her youngest consciousness, like _eau sucrée_ with
a squeeze of lemon in it. Now the wine of new perceptions, new emotions,
tinged her deeply, and because she was enriched she saw a richer world
about her. English history, from being a mere flat picture, dull at best
compared to the splendid pageantry of France, began to take on depth and
distance in her eyes. It was English history she saw now when she went
up to Oxford with Giles and Ruth, and English history was English
character; whereas event, in French history, played so much more potent
a part. Wandering in and out with Giles, the beauty of the town, with
its significance, stole upon her mind and senses. Meditative, benign,
and so humane, it seemed to smile at you like an old ecclesiastic with
kindly eyes for youth. As one sat in a sun-steeped garden or dim, carved
chapel, one felt its quiet like that of a tree, full of life and growth,
so that, though it was old, it was also young; the sap moved on to fresh
leaves while the calm old trunk endured. Time had been distilled and
preserved in it without a break or cleavage and its very light, she
felt, in this autumnal weather, had that colour of time, as though it
came through ancient glass. The quadrangles were brimmed with time and
it brooded on the lawns of Saint John’s where the Michaelmas daisies
growing against the grey stone walls made her think of the ring on the
benignant hand of the bishop. “One would grow wise by being here even if
one only sat still, like this, and looked at it,” she said to Giles. “I
only wish one did!” said Giles. But he felt what she felt and was
pleased with her for, at last, understanding his Oxford.
She began to wish for wisdom. Back at Heathside she bicycled to the High
School every morning with Rosemary, through the birch-wood, past the
red-brick villas of the town—villas upon which time had laid no kindly
hand—and all the ugliness that had so fretted her fell into an
insignificant background, since, for the first time, the day had its
object. Knowledge, of course, was quite different from wisdom. The happy
life depended on eyes to see the hands that blessed and the smile on the
face of time; but it was knowledge that opened one’s eyes and she found
in its acquisition a zest and an enfranchisement. It was in order that
she might see that smile in France that she worked so hard. The sooner
was she equipped, the sooner could she return to France and Maman.
Already she outdistanced Rosemary, and she had a touch of kindly malice
at seeing her friend of the chaffing complacencies and cheerful bullying
left behind.
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