British -- France -- Fiction; French -- England -- Fiction; Love stories
“This is very wrong of you, Alix.” These were the words she found. Her
mind, Alix saw, fixed itself upon the time of her own former
intercession for Giles. Coldness gathered in her eyes. “Giles did not
send you, I am sure. You have no right to come.”
Still, she had taken her place and was sitting there in her black,
waiting for what Alix had to say to her.
“I know it must seem strange,” said Alix. “When you have had so much to
bear. But I had to come. No, Giles did not send me. He would not have
let me come if he had known. He does not think of himself. He thinks of
you—only—always. Giles would never lift a finger to save
himself—although his heart might be breaking.”
“Alix—this is impossible.” Toppie was scanning her face with stern yet
startled eyes. “No one knows as well as I do what Giles would do for
me.—You are not yourself.—You seem to me to be hysterical.”
“No; you do not know what he would do,” said Alix. She felt that her
heart had begun to knock with heavy thuds against her side and a shudder
passed through her as she sat there straightly, her hands pressed
together in her lap, her gaze fixed on Toppie; but she saw her way to
the end of what she had to say and she could say it. “You cannot know
it. No one knows but he and I—and my mother. He has spared you; and he
has spared someone else. But I must tell. Toppie, your lover was not
true to you. He did not love you as you love him. He did not understand
love as Giles understands it, or love you with a tenth of the love that
Giles has given.—Oh, Toppie—I am sorry”—Toppie had started to her
feet and was drawing away with a look of horror—“But you must know. You
must not shut yourself away from life because of someone who is not with
you at all.—It was my mother that Captain Owen loved. He was with us
three times in Paris and he kept it from you.”
“You are mad! You do not know what you are saying. Go away. Go away at
once.” Toppie stood there as if she had been a snake—ghastly with
disgust and repudiation.
“I am not mad. It is true. Giles knows. I lied to Mrs. Bradley when she
asked me why we had never seen Captain Owen again. When I saw that he
had hidden it, I lied. I did not understand why he had kept it from you
all and it was Giles who told me—that it was because he had betrayed
you by loving Maman most. Three times he was with us in Paris that
Spring before he died.”
“Do you know what you are saying?” Toppie stared at her with dilated
eyes. “Do you understand what you are saying? Owen with you? Before he
died?—Why not? Why not?—He was your mother’s friend.”
“It was friendship in Cannes. In Paris it was different. Giles made me
see why it was different. He would not have kept it from you if it had
been friendship.”
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