What had just occurred had been unpremeditated. It was one of those
inevitable things. It had to happen. He had not planned it, although he
knew, now, that had he not procrastinated his going, had he not
drifted, he could have foreseen it. And now, going could not mend
matters. The madness of it, the hell of it and the joy of it, was that
no longer was there any doubt. Speech beyond speech, his lips still
tingling with the memory of hers, she had told him. He dwelt over that
kiss returned, his senses swimming deliciously in the sea of
remembrance.
He laid his hand caressingly on the knee that had touched hers, and was
grateful with the humility of the true lover. Wonderful it was that so
wonderful a woman should love him. This was no girl. This was a woman,
knowing her own will and wisdom. And she had breathed quickly in his
arms, and her lips had been live to his. He had evoked what he had
given, and he had not dreamed, after the years, that he had had so much
to give.
He stood up, made as if to mount Selim, who nozzled his shoulder, then
paused to debate.
It was no longer a question of going. That was definitely settled. Dick
had certain rights, true. But Paula had her rights, and did he have the
right to go, after what had happened, unless ... unless she went with
him? To go now was to kiss and ride away. Surely, since the world of
sex decreed that often the same men should love the one woman, and
therefore that perfidy should immediately enter into such a
triangle--surely, it was the lesser evil to be perfidious to the man
than to the woman.
It was a real world, he pondered as he rode slowly along; and Paula,
and Dick, and he were real persons in it, were themselves conscious
realists who looked the facts of life squarely in the face. This was no
affair of priest and code, of other wisdoms and decisions. Of
themselves must it be settled. Some one would be hurt. But life was
hurt. Success in living was the minimizing of pain. Dick believed that
himself, thanks be. The three of them believed it. And it was nothing
new under the sun. The countless triangles of the countless generations
had all been somehow solved. This, then, would be solved. All human
affairs reached some solution.
He shook sober thought from his brain and returned to the bliss of
memory, reaching his hand to another caress of his knee, his lips
breathing again to the breathing of hers against them. He even reined
Selim to a halt in order to gaze at the hollow resting place of his
bent arm which she had filled.
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