"I call him my Rock of Ages," Paula said gratefully. "He is so solid.
He stands in any storm.--Oh, you don't really know him. He is so sure.
He stands right up. He's never taken a cropper in his life. God smiles
on him. God has always smiled on him. He's never been beaten down to
his knees... yet. I... I should not care to see that sight. It would be
heartbreaking. And, Evan--" Her hand went out to his in a pleading
gesture that merged into a half-caress. "--I am afraid for him now.
That is why I don't know what to do. It is not for myself that I back
and fill and hesitate. If he were ignoble, if he were narrow, if he
were weak or had one tiniest shred of meanness, if he had ever been
beaten to his knees before, why, my dear, my dear, I should have been
gone with you long ago."
Her eyes filled with sudden moisture. She stilled him with a pressure
of her hand, and, to regain herself, she went back to her recital:
"'Your little finger, Mr. Smith, I consider worth more to me and to the
world,' Dick, told him, 'than the whole body of this woman's husband.
Here's the report on him: willing, eager to please, not bright, not
strong, an indifferent workman at best. Yet you have to go down the
hill, and I am very, very sorry.'
"Oh, yes, there was more. But I've given you the main of it. You see
Dick's code there. And he lives his code. He accords latitude to the
individual. Whatever the individual may do, so long as it does not hurt
the group of individuals in which he lives, is his own affair. He
believed Smith had a perfect right to love the woman, and to be loved
by her if it came to that. I have heard him always say that love could
not be held nor enforced. Truly, did I go with you, he would say,
'Bless you, my children.' Though it broke his heart he would say it.
Past love, he believes, gives no hold over the present. And every hour
of love, I have heard him say, pays for itself, on both sides,
quittance in full. He claims there can be no such thing as a love-debt,
laughs at the absurdity of love-claims."
"And I agree with him," Graham said. "'You promised to love me always,'
says the jilted one, and then strives to collect as if it were a
promissory note for so many dollars. Dollars are dollars, but love
lives or dies. When it is dead how can it be collected? We are all
agreed, and the way is simple. We love. It is enough. Why delay another
minute?"
His fingers strayed along her fingers on the keyboard as he bent to
her, first kissing her hair, then slowly turning her face up to his and
kissing her willing lips.
"Dick does not love me like you," she said; "not madly, I mean. He has
had me so long, I think I have become a habit to him. And often and
often, before I knew you, I used to puzzle whether he cared more for
the ranch or more for me."
"It is so simple," Graham urged. "All we have to do is to be
straightforward. Let us go."
He drew her to her feet and made as if to start.
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