Clergy -- Fiction; Love stories; Scotland -- Fiction
She turned from him, for his piercing eyes frightened her. Never
again, she knew, would she see the love-light in them. He plucked
himself from the spot where he had stood looking at her and walked to
the window. When he wheeled round there was no anger on his face, only
a pathetic wonder that he had been deceived so easily. It was at
himself that he was smiling grimly rather than at her, and the change
pained Babbie as no words could have hurt her. He sat down on a chair
and waited for her to go on.
"Don't look at me," she said, "and I will tell you everything." He
dropped his eyes listlessly, and had he not asked her a question from
time to time, she would have doubted whether he heard her.
"After all," she said, "a gypsy dress is my birth-right, and so the
Thrums people were scarcely wrong in calling me an Egyptian. It is a
pity any one insisted on making me something different. I believe I
could have been a good gypsy."
"Who were your parents?" Gavin asked, without looking up.
"You ask that," she said, "because you have a good mother. It is not
a question that would occur to me. My mother--If she was bad, may not
that be some excuse for me? Ah, but I have no wish to excuse myself.
Have you seen a gypsy cart with a sort of hammock swung beneath it in
which gypsy children are carried about the country? If there are no
children, the pots and pans are stored in it. Unless the roads are
rough it makes a comfortable cradle, and it was the only one I ever
knew. Well, one day I suppose the road was rough, for I was capsized.
I remember picking myself up after a little and running after the
cart, but they did not hear my cries. I sat down by the roadside and
stared after the cart until I lost sight of it. That was in England,
and I was not three years old."
"But surely," Gavin said, "they came back to look for you?"
"So far as I know," Babbie answered hardly, "they did not come back. I
have never seen them since. I think they were drunk. My only
recollection of my mother is that she once took me to see the dead
body of some gypsy who had been murdered. She told me to dip my hand
in the blood, so that I could say I had done so when I became a woman.
It was meant as a treat to me, and is the one kindness I am sure I got
from her. Curiously enough, I felt the shame of her deserting me for
many years afterwards. As a child I cried hysterically at thought of
it; it pained me when I was at school in Edinburgh every time I saw
the other girls writing home; I cannot think of it without a shudder
even now. It is what makes me worse than other women."
Her voice had altered, and she was speaking passionately.
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