The Little Moment of HappinessKelland, Clarence Budington
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The Little Moment of Happiness
Kelland, Clarence Budington
Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
Kendall Ware had set foot on the French liner bound for France early in
May; he had landed at Bordeaux, May 19th. It was now the last of June.
Less than two months had passed over his head, but the Kendall Ware who
paced the Avenue du Bois de Boulogne this evening was years removed from
the boy who walked the decks of the _Rochambeau_ with Maude Knox. He was
altered as only years of experience could have altered him in the times
when men went about their business after the manner of rational human
beings, when death was not a profession which engaged the world, when
the dollar was the measure of success, when one day was like another,
and meat could be eaten seven days in the week. The great modification
in him was that he had learned it to be true that man is a thinking
animal and that the brain may be used for something besides adding a
column of figures or as a storage-house for the thoughts of a past
generation. He had perceived that different theories of life existed in
the world. He had been seized by events and forcibly fed with something
which might crystallize into knowledge, and he had arrived at that
unpleasant junction in the railroad system of life where he must choose
between trains—whether he would board the one which went ahead swiftly
through the Country of Responsible Individual Thought or the one which
lagged backward through the Land of Swallowed Dogmas.... He was not
happy.
He was making another discovery—namely, that one can theorize very
comfortably, but that when one transmutes theory into accomplished fact,
theory has become practice, and speculations upon its results may be
exceedingly unpleasant. Within the last twenty-four hours Kendall had
translated one theory into a fact, and another fact had arrived, needing
no transmutation. The theory was the little-moment-of-happiness theory,
and the fact was a letter from his mother.
That morning after he had left Andree he was rather disappointed to find
that he suffered no remorse, experienced no sense of having done what he
should have left undone. Andree was Andree, sweet, good, lovable.
Because she was so, and because of his certainty of her cleanness of
soul, he felt no sense of degradation or of having transgressed. He was
even happy, rejoicing, boylike, in the sweetness of the gift of her
love.... He found his mother’s letter at the office and, having read it,
his romance was smirched with sordidness, its beauty was dulled by the
intrusion of harsh, unsparing, cold convention. The Middle West had
intruded upon Paris, and he was discovering that there was much Middle
West remaining alive in him.
His mother’s letter had said, and he could visualize her face as she
wrote, severe, unyielding, harsh, forbidding:
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