The Little Moment of HappinessKelland, Clarence Budington
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The Little Moment of Happiness
Kelland, Clarence Budington
Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
He did not want to reply, did not know what to reply. The reason that he
did not even want to put into definite thought was that Maude ought not
to meet Andree—because Andree was to him what she was.... Maude was an
American girl, a compatriot living under the laws of the Medes and the
Persians, and it would not be proper for her to associate with Andree.
“Why?” she repeated. “You said she was _nice_.” She accented the _nice_.
“If you don’t let me meet her I shall think she isn’t nice at all—and a
great many other things.”
“She is nice,” he said, sullenly. “She’s good.... You wouldn’t
understand her. I don’t think I’ve ever known anybody who was as good as
Andree—really good.... But ...”
“I think I understand,” she said, slowly. “It was really what I wanted
to know.” She frowned a trifle and became thoughtful. Then: “You know I
said before that—that I didn’t blame these girls.... It’s the war—and
their men being killed—and—Well, there’s something in the air.... I
don’t suppose I shall ever understand them, or be able to see as they
see—but I’m—well, I have a lot of sympathy.... A great many of us are
going to look at things more broadly when we get home to America. We had
never come into contact with other standards and other ways of trying
for happiness.... I know I’m talking in a muddle, but I hope you
understand. What I mean is that I wouldn’t object to meeting Andree....”
“In Paris,” said Ken.
“In Paris? What do you mean?”
“Would you be willing to meet her in New York or Cleveland or Chicago?”
She wrinkled her brows. “Honestly, I don’t know.”
“Here she would be just one of the sights of France—an experience. Well,
I’m not going to have her on exhibition, like Notre Dame.”
“It isn’t that. It isn’t curiosity.... Really, I don’t know just what it
is, but I want to be acquainted with her. I think it is so I can find
out if it is really true that she—that she can live as she does and
still be—_nice_.”
“I tell you she is nice.”
“But you are in love with her? Aren’t you in love with her? Somehow that
makes a difference. It would seem sordid and inexcusable if you
weren’t.”
“I am very fond of her.”
“Do you _love her_?”
“Yes,” he said, desperately.
She was just picking up her fork. At his words it dropped and her lips
compressed, but he did not notice. Perhaps he would have attached no
significance to these signals if he had noticed, because he was fully
occupied in thinking about himself. He had never taken time to consider
Maude Knox’s possible feelings toward himself, although he had more than
once tried in an inconclusive way to assay his own sentiments toward
Maude. Not that he was exceptionally selfish or self-centered. He was
only at that stage in his relations with Maude when he was trying to
make out what those relations might develop into. Until a young man is
fairly sure he wants a young woman very much he does not start to worry
about whether she will want him.
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