“Nay, I reckon I’ll bide till we’re through,” she said at last, in
the same expressionless voice. “Lup gone, it’s not much differ what
comes, one way or another. ’Tisn’t your doing, nor even Lancaster’s.
It’s something back of us all, that drives us as stock is driven to the
butcher. ’Twas the waiting I couldn’t abide. I’ll not fret no more,
now. But all the trusting in the world won’t stop what’s in front, cold
an’ slape an’ rivin’ an’ lowpin’----”
“Whisht, now, whisht!” Wolf begged, raising himself painfully, and
presently the gray figures went wearily over the stone floor, and
melted into the blackness of the stair.
About two in the morning, Lup stirred in his still sleep, and saw
his mother standing at his open casement. The old folk had changed
their room of late to one looking over the moss, but Lup’s faced fair
and square to the bay. It was just on tide-time, too, he remembered
drowsily, and was puzzled.
She had an old Paisley shawl thrown over her nightgown, and in the
glow of the dip she carried she looked strangely young and singularly
unfearful. There was almost a smile on her face turned and lifted
towards the sea.
He could feel that she was waiting, and her tense expectation kept
him still. A sandbank broke away just below with a thud and splash,
weirdly loud in the quiet. A chill snap of wind broke through the
window, flaring the flame and clattering the unfastened pane without.
An advance-battalion of raindrops smote the glass like a challenge, and
died. Stillness again, and the waiting silence; and then out on the
dark came the steady rush of the night-wave.
He raised himself on his elbow, ready to go to her, but she did not
flinch as the sound filled the room, and her face did not change, even
though the after-rain, riding on the wind, spattered through the open
square. There was a hiss in the water to-night, a muttered hint of
hate. The dead hour and the live wave together caught him into a vague
dread, and he stayed where he was, wondering. The night and the water
and his mother’s face; for she was listening, so he felt, not only to
the incoming tide, but to something that had as yet neither voice nor
being. He almost shivered as the pane beat against the wall like a
chained and frightened thing.
So long she stood, in the tossed light dipping and leaping like a
chased elf, so still she stood, her white face strained to that which
was not yet without, she grew into his drifting dream as he dropped
gradually to his pillow. But when the water was well past, brimming the
banks and pressing fast up the bay, he heard her draw in her breath and
let it out in a great sigh.
“_One!_” she said, like a prisoner counting towards release, or a
sufferer looking ahead in unbearable pain; and then, as she had said to
Lancaster, down below: “How long? Oh, how long?”
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