The Long Dim TrailHooker, Forrestine C. (Forrestine Cooper)
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The Long Dim Trail
Hooker, Forrestine C. (Forrestine Cooper)
Arizona -- Fiction; Cowboys -- Fiction; Ranch life -- Fiction; Western stories
"This place is not safe, Mrs. Glendon. A moment's dizziness might seize
anyone." The earth at the edge was crumbling as he spoke, a chunk of it
crashed down into the canyon below, and Powell drew her further back.
"That shale is rotten and liable to slide without an instant's warning.
I was in an Indian cave when I saw the ponies had gotten away from you
and Donnie."
She knew he was giving her a chance to evade explanations, but the woman
had reached a point where she scorned further subterfuge. When one faces
Eternity all else shrivels to insignificance. "I was not dizzy," she
replied in a dull monotone. Then turning on him passionately, she cried,
"Why did you come? Do you know Donnie is going away from me? In three
days more my boy will be taken out of my life and given to strangers who
care nothing for him? Why should we go on struggling? I am tired of it
all!"
In a flash he understood her purpose, and knew the horses had not
escaped accidentally.
"And you thought that you could keep him with you--down there?" Powell
asked in a voice unsteady with emotion.
She looked at him defiantly. "Yes, you may call it a crime; but I am
willing to bear the punishment if there is another world--if there is
another world! It is a worse crime to take a child from its mother and
give it to the father--no matter how unworthy he may be! I have borne
everything for the boy's sake; I could go on--bearing everything the
rest of my life--if I could only keep my boy!"
Her voice dropped. Powell saw that her hands and limbs were shaken with
tremors. "I love him enough to give him up with a smile, if I could know
that it was for his good. My only happiness lies in knowing I have done
the best I could for him."
He silently waited the reaction that must come. Her hands covered her
face; then a terrible sob shook her body. It was not the sharp cry of
remorse; but the terrible soul-rending cry of a heart that is near to
breaking, and the man beside her ached to take her in his arms and
comfort her as he would a child.
"Tell me about it," he said at last, and she raised her tear-stained
face.
Without reservation, she told the story of the long, bitter struggle to
reform her husband; the hope that the child would bring compensation and
finally the letter and her husband's decision which had driven her to
desperation.
"Yet, when it came to the point, you never would have been cowardly
enough to take your life and Donnie's," he asserted.
"I don't know," she faltered. "A swimmer who struggles against the tide
reaches a moment when further efforts are impossible. I have struggled,
prayed and fought until I am tired of it all. I want to stop thinking,
stop fearing the future--and sleep. It is sometimes easier to die than
to keep on living. Life is too hard, too bitter, too hopeless! You can't
understand."
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