Time and again he experienced abrupt lapses into the blackest pit of
despair, when he grappled with an aching desire to be quit of the
puzzle of life, and by any one of a dozen means which lay at his hand,
to leap into freedom. But there was in him something deep-lying and
adamantine which forbade this solution.
Meanwhile time, after a fashion, went on. He breathed, ate and slept;
he saw the dawn look in at his narrow window and the silken blue dusk
drawn across its bars; his hands automatically performed mechanical
tasks, as did the hundreds of others about him; and gradually, out of
the very iteration of these homely things grew a passive equanimity,
destitute of human comfort yet bringing with it a kind of numb
acquiescence in which, though all unconsciously, his feet were feeling
for new foot-hold on the submerged highway of life. And at length
normal feeling, though dazed and bewildered, crept again to the
surface; he was once more conscious of the sun and air, of the scent of
green growing things that the breeze now and then wafted over the
masonry, of the grey pigeons that pecked crumbs in the court-yard, and
of the multitudinous human life that throbbed about him.
In all these months Paddy the Brick had been his cell-mate. By day in
the shop, that rumbled with the clacking din of the tireless
shoe-machines, they were separated. But they marched shoulder to
breast in the loathed lock-step, they sat side by side at dinner and
supper, and the iron bunks on which they slept--Harry on the upper
one--were but a few feet apart. During the first days, while they were
together in the cell, the other had watched him glumly and
suspiciously, speaking only when he must and then morosely, so that
Harry had wondered dully whether that whirl of rage in which he had
smashed the flask of whisky against the window-bars had not further
embittered his lot by an irreparable enmity.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account