Once, as he bettered, Jubilee Jim had gone to the valley below to
return with a bundle of back-copies of the County newspaper, and as
Harry pored over these avidly, the old life had cried to him from every
line. The movement that had been called into life by the Civic Club,
in the hour when he had made the first speech of his life that had been
untinctured with any personal ambition or selfish motive, had gained
momentum; it had taken on party organisation and would be a force to be
reckoned with in the coming campaign. On that day he had had his first
taste of the joy of battle for a principle, and he longed inexpressibly
to throw the power, of which he was now more than ever conscious, into
the struggle for the new ideal.
Suppose he went back, and Craig recovered the mind that was now in
eclipse--recovered and remembered? What then?
His safety lay in the fact that no one possessed the clue to the
unthinkable reality. Craig, if he recovered, would possess this, and
if he in his right senses denounced him, the accusation, spectacular
and incredible as it might seem, would have to be seriously met. And
he could not meet it, for it would be true! So long as Craig lived,
the harrowing danger would always be there--a veritable Sword of
Damocles! Would not his future be forever a dubious adventure, haunted
always by a torturing shadow and the dread of discovery and shame? In
fancy he saw himself seized--to be suddenly confronted with that
shameful thing, to face a cloud of witnesses, be dragged back to a
cell, despised and broken, once more a convict--that, or else flight,
cringing and furtive, with the hounds of the law in cry!
And yet, did not the chances that Craig would not regain his faculties
vastly preponderate? The newspapers Harry had read had not contained
the item chronicling Craig's journey to Buda-Pesth, and recovery was
not an imminent possibility to his mind. A year had gone by, and all
the skill that wealth could invoke had no doubt been applied, and
vainly. Even if sometime he to some extent recovered, it was more than
likely that his memory of that fatal night in his library would be
impaired. So Harry told himself.
Over and over he followed the trail of painful reflection, in a vicious
circle that centred always in the one thought that sent his mind
shrinking in upon itself--Echo. What would that old life be to him,
denied its old relations? He and she were nothing to one another any
more: she was only a stinging memory. And he would see her, meet her,
talk with her, always with that sickening pretence of ignorance between
them, in a painful hypocrisy, till she should love and marry--some one
else than him! A wave of sick revolt had surged over him at the
thought. What to him was freedom, even life itself, if each hour held
the thumb-screw and the rack?
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