Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
But she returned to the subject again, not only on that day but
throughout the term. Could nothing be done for poor Mr. Ansell? It
seemed that she could not rest until all that he had once held dear
was humiliated. In this she strayed outside her nature: she was
unpractical. And those who stray outside their nature invite disaster.
Rickie, goaded by her, wrote to his friend again. The letter was in all
ways unlike his old self. Ansell did not answer it. But he did write to
Mr. Jackson, with whom he was not acquainted.
“Dear Mr. Jackson,—
“I understand from Widdrington that you have a large house. I would
like to tell you how convenient it would be for me to come and stop in
it. June suits me best.—
“Yours truly,
“Stewart Ansell”
To which Mr. Jackson replied that not only in June but during the whole
year his house was at the disposal of Mr. Ansell and of any one who
resembled him.
But Agnes continued her life, cheerfully beating time. She, too, knew
that her marriage was a failure, and in her spare moments regretted
it. She wished that her husband was handsomer, more successful, more
dictatorial. But she would think, “No, no; one mustn’t grumble. It
can’t be helped.” Ansell was wrong in supposing she might ever leave
Rickie. Spiritual apathy prevented her. Nor would she ever be tempted
by a jollier man. Here criticism would willingly alter its tone. For
Agnes also has her tragedy. She belonged to the type—not necessarily
an elevated one—that loves once and once only. Her love for Gerald had
not been a noble passion: no imagination transfigured it. But such as
it was, it sprang to embrace him, and he carried it away with him when
he died. _Les amours qui suivrent sont moins involuntaires_: by an effort
of the will she had warmed herself for Rickie.
She is not conscious of her tragedy, and therefore only the gods need
weep at it. But it is fair to remember that hitherto she moves as one
from whom the inner life has been withdrawn.
XXV
“I am afraid,” said Agnes, unfolding a letter that she had received in
the morning, “that things go far from satisfactorily at Cadover.”
The three were alone at supper. It was the June of Rickie’s second year
at Sawston.
“Indeed?” said Herbert, who took a friendly interest. “In what way?
“Do you remember us talking of Stephen—Stephen Wonham, who by an odd
coincidence—”
“Yes. Who wrote last year to that miserable failure Varden. I do.”
“It is about him.”
“I did not like the tone of his letter.”
Agnes had made her first move. She waited for her husband to reply to
it. But he, though full of a painful curiosity, would not speak. She
moved again.
“I don’t think, Herbert, that Aunt Emily, much as I like her, is the
kind of person to bring a young man up. At all events the results have
been disastrous this time.”
“What has happened?”
“A tangle of things.” She lowered her voice. “Drink.”
“Dear! Really! Was Mrs. Failing fond of him?”
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