Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
There was something fatal in the order of these deaths. Mr. Failing
had made no provision for the boy in his will: his wife had promised
to see to this. Then came Mr. Elliot’s death, and, before the new home
was created, the sudden death of Mrs. Elliot. She also left Stephen no
money: she had none to leave. Chance threw him into the power of Mrs.
Failing. “Let things go on as they are,” she thought. “I will take care
of this pretty little boy, and the ugly little boy can live with the
Silts. After my death—well, the papers will be found after my death,
and they can meet then. I like the idea of their mutual ignorance. It
is amusing.”
He was then twelve. With a few brief intervals of school, he lived in
Wiltshire until he was driven out. Life had two distinct sides—the
drawing-room and the other. In the drawing-room people talked a good
deal, laughing as they talked. Being clever, they did not care for
animals: one man had never seen a hedgehog. In the other life people
talked and laughed separately, or even did neither. On the whole, in
spite of the wet and gamekeepers, this life was preferable. He knew
where he was. He glanced at the boy, or later at the man, and behaved
accordingly. There was no law—the policeman was negligible. Nothing
bound him but his own word, and he gave that sparingly.
It is impossible to be romantic when you have your heart’s desire, and
such a boy disappointed Mrs. Failing greatly. His parents had met for
one brief embrace, had found one little interval between the power of
the rulers of this world and the power of death. He was the child of
poetry and of rebellion, and poetry should run in his veins. But he
lived too near the things he loved to seem poetical. Parted from them,
he might yet satisfy her, and stretch out his hands with a pagan’s
yearning. As it was, he only rode her horses, and trespassed, and
bathed, and worked, for no obvious reason, upon her fields. Affection
she did not believe in, and made no attempt to mould him; and he, for
his part, was very content to harden untouched into a man. His parents
had given him excellent gifts—health, sturdy limbs, and a face not
ugly,—gifts that his habits confirmed. They had also given him a
cloudless spirit—the spirit of the seventeen days in which he was
created. But they had not given him the spirit of their six years of
waiting, and love for one person was never to be the greatest thing he
knew.
“Philosophy” had postponed the quarrel between them. Incurious about
his personal origin, he had a certain interest in our eternal problems.
The interest never became a passion: it sprang out of his physical
growth, and was soon merged in it again. Or, as he put it himself,
“I must get fixed up before starting.” He was soon fixed up as a
materialist. Then he tore up the sixpenny reprints, and never amused
Mrs. Failing so much again.
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