Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
They were facing each other, silent and motionless. Then Rickie
advanced to the window. The girl darted in front of him. He thought he
had never seen her so beautiful. She was stopping his advance quite
frankly, with widespread arms.
“Elliot!”
He moved forward—into what? He pretended to himself he would rather
see his brother before he answered; that it was easier to acknowledge
him thus. But at the back of his soul he knew that the woman had
conquered, and that he was moving forward to acknowledge her. “If he
calls me again—” he thought.
“Elliot!”
“Well, if he calls me once again, I will answer him, vile as he is.”
He did not call again.
Stephen had really come back for some tobacco, but as he passed under
the windows he thought of the poor fellow who had been “nipped”
(nothing serious, said Mrs. Failing), and determined to shout good-bye
to him. And once or twice, as he followed the river into the darkness,
he wondered what it was like to be so weak,—not to ride, not to swim,
not to care for anything but books and a girl.
They embraced passionately. The danger had brought them very near to
each other. They both needed a home to confront the menacing tumultuous
world. And what weary years of work, of waiting, lay between them and
that home! Still holding her fast, he said, “I was writing to Ansell
when you came in.”
“Do you owe him a letter?”
“No.” He paused. “I was writing to tell him about this. He would help
us. He always picks out the important point.”
“Darling, I don’t like to say anything, and I know that Mr. Ansell
would keep a secret, but haven’t we picked out the important point for
ourselves?”
He released her and tore the letter up.
XV
The sense of purity is a puzzling and at times a fearful thing. It
seems so noble, and it starts as one with morality. But it is a
dangerous guide, and can lead us away not only from what is gracious,
but also from what is good. Agnes, in this tangle, had followed it
blindly, partly because she was a woman, and it meant more to her than
it can ever mean to a man; partly because, though dangerous, it is also
obvious, and makes no demand upon the intellect. She could not feel
that Stephen had full human rights. He was illicit, abnormal, worse
than a man diseased. And Rickie remembering whose son he was, gradually
adopted her opinion. He, too, came to be glad that his brother had
passed from him untried, that the symbolic moment had been rejected.
Stephen was the fruit of sin; therefore he was sinful. He, too, became
a sexual snob.
And now he must hear the unsavoury details. That evening they sat in
the walled garden. Agnes, according to arrangement, left him alone with
his aunt. He asked her, and was not answered.
“You are shocked,” she said in a hard, mocking voice. “It is very nice
of you to be shocked, and I do not wish to grieve you further. We will
not allude to it again. Let us all go on just as we are. The comedy is
finished.”
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