As often as not, it is mere chance that provides the most essentially
important moments in our lives. It is easy to talk of the inevitable
march of Fate, but more usually a chance word or look alters our entire
outlook on life. And so it was that the course of Gordon's whole career
was suddenly changed into a different channel, at a moment when he was
drifting placidly on the stream of a lax conventionality, and was
frittering away all his opportunities for sheer lack of anything that
would spur him on to a clearer conception of what life means.
During the whole of the term, Tester and Gordon had done their early
morning preparation on the V. A green. As they had answered their names
at roll, they would take out deck-chairs and cushions and luxuriously
pass the three quarters of an hour before breakfast reclining back,
putting the finishing touches to the evening's work. It is a very
beautiful spot, the V. A green. On three sides it is flanked with
buildings; on the fourth is a low wall, which is used as an exit for
nocturnal expeditions. It was under the V. A class-room that Gordon and
Tester put their chairs. Opposite them was the grey library; beyond rose
the Abbey, solemn and austere; on the left was the chapel and the long
cloister leading to big school. In the early morning a great hush
pervaded the place. The only sound was the faint tolling of the
Almshouse bell. Between the Abbey and the library the sun rose in a
blaze of glory.
On the last morning of the term Gordon and Tester lolled back in their
comfortable chairs. Gordon was trying to learn his rep. for the exam.
that morning. Tester was reading _The Oxford Book of English Verse_; the
exams for the Sixth were over.
"Oh, damn this," said Gordon. "I can't learn the stuff."
He flung the book down, and lay back watching the first rays of the sun
flicker on the cold bronze of the Abbey.
"This has been a rotten term, you know," he said at last.
"Yes?" said Tester. He was engrossed in poetry.
"Well, I got into the deuce of a row with Chief, and I never got my
House cap, and I've broken it off with Jackson."
Tester put down his book and sat up.
"Caruthers, you know you are wasting your time. Here are you with all
your brilliance and your personality worrying only about House caps and
petty intrigues, and little things like that. What you want to realise
is that there is something beyond the aim of a Fernhurst career. You are
clever enough; but poetry and art mean nothing to you."
"Oh poetry, that's all right for Claremont and asses like that, but
what's the use of it?"
"Oh, use, use! Nothing but this eternal cry about the use of a thing.
Poetry is the sort of beacon-light of man. What's wrong with you is that
you've read the wrong stuff. It is all very well for a middle-aged man
to worship Wordsworth and calm philosophy. But youth wants colour, life,
passion, the poetry of revolt. Now look here, let me read you this, and
then tell me what you think of it."
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