"When you leave here," she said, "for some new post, you won't forget
me, but you'll be grateful that I let you go alone; that I was not a
drag on you. When you go back to your great people and your proud and
beautiful princesses, all this will seem a strange dream, and you will
be glad you are awake--and free."
"The idea of marrying you, Monica," said Everett, "is not new. It did
not occur to me only since we moved out here into the moonlight. Since
I first saw you I've thought of you, and only of you. I've thought of
you with me in every corner of the globe, as my wife, my sweetheart, my
partner, riding through jungles as we ride here, sitting opposite me at
our own table, putting the proud and beautiful princesses at their
ease. And in all places, at all moments, you make all other women
tawdry and absurd. And I don't think you are the most wonderful person
I ever met because I love you, but I love you because you are the most
wonderful person I ever met."
"I am young," said Monica, "but since I began to love you I am very
old. And I see clearly that it cannot be."
"Dear heart," cried Everett, "that is quite morbid. What the devil do
I care what your brother has done! I am not marrying your brother."
For a long time, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees and her
face buried in her hands, the girl sat silent. It was as though she
were praying. Everett knew it was not of him, but of her brother, she
was thinking, and his heart ached for her. For him to cut the brother
out of his life was not difficult; what it meant to her he could guess.
When the girl raised her eyes they were eloquent with distress.
"He has been so good to me," she said; "always so gentle. He has been
mother and father to me. He is the first person I can remember. When I
was a child he put me to bed, he dressed me, and comforted me. When we
became rich there was nothing he did not wish to give me. I cannot
leave him. He needs me more than ever I needed him. I am all he has.
And there is this besides. Were I to marry, of all the men in the
world it would be harder for him if I married you. For if you succeed
in what you came here to do, the law will punish him, and he will know
it was through you he was punished. And even between you and me there
always would be that knowledge, that feeling."
"That is not fair," cried Everett. "I am not an individual fighting
less fortunate individuals. I am an insignificant wheel in a great
machine. You must not blame me because I-"
With an exclamation the girl reproached him.
"Because you do your duty!" she protested. "Is that fair to me? If for
my sake or my brother you failed in your duty, if you were less
vigilant, less eager, even though we suffer, I could not love you."
Everett sighed happily.
"As long as you love me," he said, "neither your brother nor any one
else can keep us apart."
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