New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
They talked as they proceeded along the Boulevard Anspach. The long and
the short of it was that Janet agreed to consider the offer. She
promised to pay a visit next day to M. St. Hilaire’s apartments in order
to meet Henriette. She would then make up her mind whether to take the
position or not.
Upon this understanding the Alsatian left her.
Janet, all agog with her adventure, gave up shopping for the day.
The encounter appeared to her to be a godsend.
She liked M. St. Hilaire. If she also liked his daughter, if she and
Henriette took to each other enough to make the proffered place
attractive, she would be in a position to part company with Claude
immediately.
As she had a strong conviction (backed by plenty of experience) that she
could get along with any halfway tolerable human being, she considered
the step as good as taken.
True, she anticipated a bad quarter of an hour in having it out with
Claude. But what a jolly thing it was to be in possession of a powerful
weapon like economic independence. It was the last argument against
tyrants, in this case against Claude and the special set of
circumstances that made her absolutely dependent upon him.
She wished she could be candid with Claude and tell him all about the
Alsatian. But this was impossible. Claude’s capacity for candor was
like some people’s capacity for alcohol. A little of it went to his
head and made him quarrelsome.
She was not like that! She could stand being told any amount of truth
(or so she flattered herself). This was why so many people made her
their confidante. Having an illusion stripped away might give acute
pain, but it never outraged her. Witness her disenchantment with the
theory of free love. But Claude, in common with most people, was like
the famous prisoner who had spent years in a dungeon and who, when
released, was quite overpowered by the fresh air. An unusual supply of
truth all but killed the average man.
In this matter, the only one she had ever met like herself was Robert
Lloyd. How she had underestimated Robert! Worse, how she had
underestimated the strength of her attachment to him! Her partnership
with Claude, a partnership of infatuation, had been a weak thing. A
breath had made it, and a breath had blown it away. But her partnership
with Robert, a partnership of work and mutual interests, had been a bond
of adamant. Time could not wither it nor custom stale its precious
memory.
She had a passionate longing to write Robert and pour out her heart to
him as in the old days of the firm of Barr & Lloyd.
But no. This would never do. In questions of sex, Robert was as
fanatic as any average American business man. The scene on the East
River pier came back to her vividly. There he had stood like a
reincarnation of Cato the Elder (Cornelia’s nicknames certainly did hit
the bull’s-eye at times!) lecturing her and saying:
"I sha’n’t have anything to do with free love or with a woman who has
had a free lover."
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