From this hell in which--as Brunton imagined--the loss of a woman, and
not the loss of his own self-esteem furnished the flame, Brunton's only
escape was work; and into work he flung himself, as a scalded child into
cold water, only to find the agony redoubled on emergence. For though
his work--eight, ten, and sometimes sixteen hours a day of the tensest
mental concentration--did momentarily banish introspection; always, his
work concluded, came the Furies.
In the night, they came--like evil old women--lashing him, sleepless,
from room to room of that huge silent house, mocking him, mocking him.
"Only wait," mocked the Furies. "She'll come back. Perhaps she's on her
way home at this very moment. She'll soon tire of Cavendish--of
Cavendish."
Brunton tried to scream back at them (he knew, even before they showed
him his face in the mirror of his dressing-room, that the scream could
not pass his lips), "I wouldn't have her back. I wouldn't, I tell you--I
wouldn't. She's a loose woman. An adulteress."
"Oh, yes, you would," answered the Furies. "Oh, yes, you would. If she
came into this house now--if she rang the front door-bell--listen!
listen hard! didn't you hear a bell, Brunton?--if she offered herself to
you, you'd take her. It's three years, Brunton. Three years since you
went into that room. Think of her, Brunton. Think of her--her hair
unbound--her arms open to receive--Cavendish!"
And by day, when the evil old women slept, men mocked at
him--voicelessly. All men--so it seemed to him--knew his shame. All men!
Lennard and the chauffeur, so smooth-faced, so efficient, grinning
behind smug hands: the acquaintances at his clubs: his co-barristers,
lunching either side of him at Middle Temple Hall: his subservient
clerk: his respectful clients--all these knew him for the deserted bull,
for the male incapable of authority, for the public cuckold. Even the
impassive pseudo-friendly judges who gave him his verdicts were wise to
his cuckoldry.
Curiously enough, in all that month of June, Brunton never lost a case.
Possible defeats, probable compromises, doubtful prosecution, or still
more doubtful defense--every legal battle he fought ended in sweeping
victory. Treasury briefs, consultations, and demands for his "opinion"
avalanched on his chambers in King's Bench Walk. Fleet Street echoed and
reëchoed his name; till it appeared as though the herd, the damned
hypocritical herd who fawned openly on his public success so that they
might gloat the more on his secret failure, twitted him in very malice
with the prospects of a knighthood, of a judgeship, of a safe seat at
the next election.
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