When they had gone Thirlwell sat down and lighted his pipe, for he knew
he must grapple with his trouble before it mastered him. Looking back,
he saw that he had been strangely pleased by Agatha's letters, and when
he met her had at once felt her charm. This, however, was all; he
frankly enjoyed her society and thought she liked his, but he was not
romantic and was satisfied that they should drift into a close and
confidential friendship. It was obvious now that he had been remarkably
dull; Scott had seen how things were going.
Then he had taken it for granted that Agatha would not find the vein,
and had helped her because he thought it better she should convince
herself that Strange had been the victim of his imagination. He had
honestly thought this when they started, but now recognized that he had
unconsciously had another object: he wanted her society and to earn her
gratitude.
A light began to dawn on him when he found Strange's tobacco-box, but he
had, so to speak, evaded full illumination until it became obvious that
they were near the vein. Then the truth could no longer be denied. He
was in love with the girl, and had unconsciously loved her from the
first. In a sense, this looked ridiculous; but there it was and he must
face it. If she had been poor, he would have urged her to marry him,
although it might have exposed her to some risk of hardship. But she was
rich, and the best he could hope for was a post at a mine like the
Clermont.
He had no ground for imagining that Agatha would be willing to marry
him; but if she were, it would look as if he meant to share her riches
when he offered his help. In fact, it would look as if he meant to take
advantage of her ignorance about mining matters and her trust. It would
not disturb him if outsiders thought this, but she might come to think
so.
Besides, he was not going to be supported by his wife's money. In view
of their characters, the situation would be humiliating for both. Agatha
might learn to despise him, which would be intolerable.
Then he felt a touch on his shoulder and got up with a start. Agatha
stood close by and he thought there was more color in her face than
usual, although her eyes were calm.
"Brooding over our good luck?" she said with a smile. "Isn't that a
curious attitude?"
"The good luck is yours."
"If you insist on the difference, but I don't know that it's kind!
Besides, I wanted to give you half my frontage on the vein."
"That's quite impossible," said Thirlwell firmly.
"Why is it impossible?"
"It would look as if I'd meant to take advantage of your generosity."
"Does it matter how the thing would look?"
"Yes," said Thirlwell, who hesitated. "I want to keep your good
opinion--if I have it."
Agatha smiled, but her glance was soft. "I won't flatter you, because I
think you ought to know. But why are you moody? I'd expected you to be
sympathetic to rejoice with me."
"For your sake, I am glad."
"But not for yours?"
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