The MagicianMaugham, W. Somerset (William Somerset)
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The Magician
Maugham, W. Somerset (William Somerset)
Magic -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction
“How on earth can you find time to do so much?” asked Susie.
“I can do with less sleep than I used,” he answered. “It almost doubles
my working-day.”
He stopped abruptly and looked down. His remark had given accidentally
some hint at the inner life which he was striving to conceal. Susie
knew that her suspicion was well-founded. She thought of the long hours
he lay awake, trying in vain to drive from his mind the agony that
tortured him, and the short intervals of troubled sleep. She knew that
he delayed as long as possible the fatal moment of going to bed, and
welcomed the first light of day, which gave him an excuse for getting
up. And because he knew that he had divulged the truth he was
embarrassed. They sat in awkward silence. To Susie, the tragic figure
in front of her was singularly impressive amid that lighthearted
throng: all about them happy persons were enjoying the good things of
life, talking, laughing, and making merry. She wondered what refinement
of self-torture had driven him to choose that place to come to. He must
hate it.
When they finished luncheon, Susie took her courage in both hands.
“Won’t you come back to my rooms for half an hour? We can’t talk here.”
He made an instinctive motion of withdrawal, as though he sought to
escape. He did not answer immediately, and she insisted.
“You have nothing to do for an hour, and there are many things I want
to speak to you about”
“The only way to be strong is never to surrender to one’s weakness,” he
said, almost in a whisper, as though ashamed to talk so intimately.
“Then you won’t come?”
“No.”
It was not necessary to specify the matter which it was proposed to
discuss. Arthur knew perfectly that Susie wished to talk of Margaret,
and he was too straightforward to pretend otherwise. Susie paused for
one moment.
“I was never able to give Margaret your message. She did not write to
me.”
A certain wildness came into his eyes, as if the effort he made was
almost too much for him.
“I saw her in Monte Carlo,” said Susie. “I thought you might like to
hear about her.”
“I don’t see that it can do any good,” he answered.
Susie made a little hopeless gesture. She was beaten.
“Shall we go?” she said.
“You are not angry with me?” he asked. “I know you mean to be kind. I’m
very grateful to you.”
“I shall never be angry with you,” she smiled.
Arthur paid the bill, and they threaded their way among the tables. At
the door she held out her hand.
“I think you do wrong in shutting yourself away from all human
comradeship,” she said, with that good-humoured smile of hers. “You
must know that you will only grow absurdly morbid.”
“I go out a great deal,” he answered patiently, as though he reasoned
with a child. “I make a point of offering myself distractions from my
work. I go to the opera two or three times a week.”
“I thought you didn’t care for music.”
“I don’t think I did,” he answered. “But I find it rests me.”
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