Love stories; Success -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Youth -- Fiction
"I didn't know you could be so tragic, Warry. The first thing I know
you'll be really quarreling with me, and I don't intend to have that.
Why don't you change your tactics and be a good little boy? You've been
spoiled by too much indulgence of late. Now I don't intend to spoil you
a bit. You were terribly rude,--I didn't think you capable of it, and
all because I wouldn't offend my father and his friends and other very
good people, by refusing to take part in the harmless exercises of that
perfectly ridiculous but useful society, the Knights of Midas. That's
all over now; and the sun comes up every morning just as it used to. You
and I live in the same small town and it's too small to quarrel in."
She paused and laughed, seeing how he was swaying between the impulse to
accept her truce and the inclination to parley further. He had been
persuading himself that he loved her, and he had found keen joy in the
misery into which he had worked himself, thinking that there was
something ideal and noble in his attitude. He did not know Evelyn as
well as he thought he did; when she came home he had imagined that all
would go smoothly between them; he had meant to monopolize her, and to
dictate to her when need be. He had assumed that they would meet on a
plane that would be accessible to no other man in Clarkson; and his
conceit was shaken to find that she was disposed to be generously
hospitable toward all. It was this that enraged him particularly against
Wheaton, who stood quite as well with her, he assured himself, as he
did. Her beauty and sweetness seemed to mock him; if he did not love her
now as he thought he did, he at least was deeply appreciative of the
qualities which set her apart from other women.
There are men like Raridan, who are devoid of evil impulse, and who are
swayed and touched by the charm of women through an excess in themselves
of that nicer feeling which we call feminine, usually in depreciation,
as if it were contemptible. But there is something appealing and fine
about it; it is not altogether a weakness; doers of the world's
worthiest tasks have been notable possessors of this quality. Raridan
had a true sense of personal honor, and yet his imagination was strong
enough to play tricks with his conscience. He had argued himself into a
mood of desperate love; he felt that he was swayed by passion; but it
was of jealousy and not of love.
Evelyn walked a little way toward the door and he followed gloomily
along. He called her name and she paused. They were not alone on the
veranda, and she did not want a scene. Raridan began again:
"Why, ever since we were children together I've looked forward to this
time. It always seemed the most natural thing in the world that I should
love you. When you went away to college, I never had any fear that it
would make any difference; when I saw you down there you were always
kind,--"
"Of course I was kind," she interrupted; "and I don't mean to be
anything else now."
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