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“Eileen has gone with him,” Arnold added, in graver vein than usual. “I
suppose she wants to look after him, and they both want not to waste
the time that’s left.... Of course, many people will be horrified, and
think the worst. Personally, I think it a pity she should do it, because
it means, for her, giving up a great deal, now and afterwards, though
for him nothing now but a principle. The breaking of the principle is
surprising in him, and really, if one comes to think of it, pretty sad,
and a sign of how he’s broken up altogether. Because he has always held
these things uncivilised and wrong, and said so. I suppose he’s too weak
in body to say so any more, or to stand against his need and hers any
longer. I think it a bad mistake, and I wish they wouldn’t do it.
Besides, she’s too fine, and has too much to give, to throw it all at
one dying man, as she’s doing. What’s it been in Datcherd all along
that’s so held her--he so sickly and wrecked and morose, she so
brilliant and alive and young and full of genius and joy? Of course he’s
brilliant too, in his own way, and lovable, and interesting; but a
failure for all that, and an unhappy failure, and now at the last a
failure even as to his own principles of life. I suppose it has been
always just that that has held her; his failure and need. These things
are dark; but anyhow there it is; one never saw two people care for each
other more or need each other more.... She was afraid of hurting his
work by coming to him before; but the time for thinking of that is past,
and I suppose she will stay with him now till the end, and it will be
their one happy time. You know I think these things mostly a mistake,
and these absorbing emotions uncivilised, and nearly all alliances
ill-assorted, and this one will be condemned. But much she’ll care for
that when it is all over and he has gone. What will happen to her then I
can’t guess; she won’t care much for anything any of us can do to help,
for a long time. It is a pity. But such is life, a series of futile
wreckages.” He went on to other topics. Eddy didn’t read the rest just
then, but went out for a long and violent walk across country with his
incredibly mongrel dog.
Confusion, with its many faces, its shouting of innumerable voices,
overlay the green June country. For him in that hour the voice of pity
and love rose dominant, drowning the other voices, that questioned and
wondered and denied, as the cuckoos from every tree questioned and
commented on life in their strange, late note. Love and pity; pity and
love; mightn’t these two resolve all discord at last? Arnold’s point of
view, that of the civilised person of sense, he saw and shared; Eileen’s
and Datcherd’s he saw and felt; his own mother’s, and the Bellairs’, and
that of those like-minded with them, he saw and appreciated; all were
surely right, yet they did not make for harmony.
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