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Molly said consolingly, “Don’t you mind, Eddy. She doesn’t really. She
only pretends to, for fun. She knows it wasn’t your fault. Of course you
had to take your friend home if she wasn’t well.”
“I couldn’t have left her, as a matter of fact. She was frightfully
unhappy and unhinged.... It was Mrs. Le Moine.” He conquered a vague
reluctance and added this. He was not going to have the vestige of a
secret from Molly.
She flushed quickly and said nothing, and he knew that he had hurt her.
Yet it was an unthinkable alternative to conceal the truth from her;
equally unthinkable not to do these things that hurt her. What then,
would be the solution? Simply he did not know. A change of attitude on
her part seemed to him the only possible one, and he had waited now long
for that in vain. To avert her sombreness and his, he began to talk
cheerfully to her about all manner of things, and she responded, but not
quite spontaneously. A shadow lay between them.
So obvious was it that after dinner he told her so, in those words.
She tried to smile. “Does it? How silly you are.”
“You’d better tell me the worst, you know. You think it was ill-bred of
me to be late for dinner.”
“What rubbish; I don’t. As if you could help it.”
But he knew she thought he could have helped it. So they left it at
that, and the shadow remained.
Eddy, it may have been mentioned, had the gift of sympathy largely
developed--the quality of his defect of impressionability. He had it
more than is customary. People found that he said and felt the most
consoling thing, and left unsaid the less. It was because he found
realisation easy. So people in trouble often came to him. Eileen Le
Moine, reaching out in her desperate need on the mist-bound marshes,
had, as it were, met the saving grasp of his hand. Half-consciously she
had let it draw her out of the deep waters where she was sinking, on to
the shores of sanity. She reached out to him again. He had cared for
Hugh; he cared for her; he understood how nothing in heaven and earth
now mattered; he did not try to give her interests; he simply gave her
his sorrow and understanding and his admiration of Hugh. So she claimed
it, as a drowning man clutches instinctively at the thing which will
best support him. And as she claimed he gave. He gave of his best. He
tried to make Molly give too, but she would not.
There came a day when Bridget Hogan wrote and said that she had to go
out of town for Sunday, and didn’t want to leave Eileen alone in the
flat all day, and would Eddy come and see her there--come to lunch,
perhaps, and stay for the afternoon.
“You are good for her; better than anyone else, I think,” Bridget wrote.
“She feels she can talk about Hugh to you, though to hardly anyone--not
even to me much. I am anxious about her just now. Please do come if you
can.”
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