Now, indeed, she and Owen were really lovers, meeting on an equal ground
through the very force of their mutual love. Gone for ever were the old
doubts and misunderstandings, the miserable fooling of inferiority on
Toni's side, the half-unconscious irritation with which Owen had viewed
what seemed to be his wife's limitations.
No miracle had been worked. Toni and Owen both knew very well that in
literary matters Owen would always be superior to Toni; but now that
they were one in ambition, one in feeling, one in heart and soul, this
superiority mattered little.
Now that she was no longer frightened, no longer felt herself despised,
Toni could give her natural intelligence full play; and when once Owen
took the trouble to study Toni closely, he thanked his gods that he had
discovered her worth before it was too late.
What he had taken for stupidity was only diffidence. Toni's brain,
though not so highly specialized as his own, was a very capable, quick
organ all the same; and in the lonely, dreary months of her absence Owen
had learned to value at their true worth the precious gifts of laughter
and sunny, unselfish gaiety which had once lightened the stately old
house. When Toni disappeared, it seemed as though a living sunbeam had
deserted the household; and when, on announcing the news of her safety
and ultimate return, he had seen the faces of the servants break into
relieved smiles, Owen had felt, with a twinge of shame, that even her
dependants had valued Toni more than he, her husband, had known how to
do.
Always, too, the remembrance of the significance of Toni's sacrifice
would keep Owen humble before her. He knew now, beyond all possibility
of doubt, that it had nearly broken her heart to leave him; and though
her tragically childish notion of setting him free by eloping with
Leonard Dowson often brought a tender, half-quizzical smile to his lips,
Owen fully appreciated the love and eager longing which had driven Toni
to that futile step.
If Toni had found her soul, Owen too had gained something which his
character had hitherto lacked; and in his new humility and comprehension
there was the germ, also, of a new content for both of them.
* * * * *
Toni caught her breath in a sob of rapture as the old house came into
view.
Everyone about the place, servants, gardeners, chauffeur, had worked
their hardest during the last excited weeks to bring the whole place to
the highest pitch of perfection; and to Toni's longing eyes the
beautiful old house, in its setting of tall trees, smooth green lawns,
and brilliant, many-hued flowers, had never looked so eminently
attractive, so alluringly home-like before.
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