"I do love your light hair, Henry," she said aloud, "and it is so well
brushed. You Englishmen are certainly _soigne_ creatures, and I like
your lazy, easy grace--as though you would never put yourself out for
any one. I can't bear a fuss." She puffed her cigarette and did not wait
for him to answer her, but prattled on perfectly at ease. Even his
courtesy would not have prevented him from snubbing her, if she had been
the least tentative in her caressings, or the least diffident. But she
just took it as a matter of course that she could stroke his hair if she
wanted to, and presently it began to give him a sensation of pleasure
and rest. If she had, by word or look, suggested that she expected some
return, Henry would have frozen at once--but all she did was apparently
only to please herself, and so he had no defense to make. Still in the
character of domestic tyrant, she presently led him to the comfortable
armchair, and once more seated herself upon the stool close to the fire
by his side. Here she was silent for a few moments, letting the comfort
of the whole scene sink in to his brain--and then, when the maid came in
to clear away the dinner-table, she got up and went to the piano, where
she played some soft, but not sentimental tunes. Music of a certain sort
would be the worst thing for him, but a light air while Marie was in the
room could do no harm. Though, when she went over close to him again,
she saw that even this pause had allowed him time to think, and that his
face was once more overcome by melancholy, although he greeted her with
a smile.
Something further must be done.
"Henry," she said, cooingly, kneeling down beside him and taking his
hand, "will you promise me something, please. I am not clever like you,
but I do know one splendid recipe for taking away pain; every time the
thought of Sabine comes up to you and the old pictures you used to hold,
look them squarely in the face, and then deliberately replace them with
others that you can obtain--the strange law of periodicity will be in
motion and, if you have only will enough, gradually the pictures that
can be yours will unconsciously have taken the place of the old ones
which have caused you pain. Is it not much better to do that than just
to let yourself grieve--surely it is more like a man?"
Henry looked at her, a little startled. This idea had never presented
itself to him. Yes, it was certainly more like a man to try any measure
than "just to grieve," and what if there should be some truth in this
suggestion--? What did the "law of periodicity" mean? What an American
phrase! How apt they were at coining expressive sentences. He looked
into the glowing ashes--there he seemed to see in ruins the whole fabric
of his dreams--but if there was a law which brought thoughts back, and
back again at the same hour each day, then Moravia was right: he must
blot out the old pictures and conjure up new ones--but what could they
be--?
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