The Man in Black: An Historical Novel of the Days of Queen AnneJames, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
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The Man in Black: An Historical Novel of the Days of Queen Anne
James, G. P. R. (George Payne Rainsford)
Great Britain -- History -- Anne, 1702-1714 -- Fiction
overpowering impulses of my heart; and neither you nor any one could
expect me to resist it. But there is yet a stronger still--not an
impulse, but a passion, and to that every thing must yield. It is
love; and whatever may be the difference which you see between
yourself and me, however inferior I may feel myself to you in all
those qualities which I myself the most admire, still, I feel myself
justified in placing the case clearly before you--in telling you how
truly, how sincerely, how ardently I love you, and in asking you
whether you will deign to favor my suit even now as I stand, to save
me the pain and grief of contending with the father of her I love, the
anguish of stripping him of the property he so well uses, and of the
rank which he adorns; or will leave me to establish my rights, to take
my just name and station, and then, when no longer appearing humble
and unknown, to plead my cause with no less humility than I do at
present.
"That I shall do so then, as now, rest assured--that I would do so if
the rank and station to which I have a right were a principality, do
not doubt; but I would fain, if it were possible, avoid inflicting any
pain upon your father. I know not how he may bear the loss of station
and of fortune--I know not what effect the struggles of a court of
law, and inevitable defeat may produce. Only acquainted with him by
general repute, I cannot tell what may be the effect of mortification
and the loss of all he has hitherto enjoyed. He has the reputation of
a good, a just, and a wise man, somewhat vehement in feeling, somewhat
proud of his position. You must judge him, rather than I; but, I
beseech you, consider him in this matter.
"At any time, and at all times, my love will be the same--nothing can
change me--nothing can alter or affect the deep love I bear you. When
casting from me the cloud which had hung upon my birth, when assuming
the rank and taking possession of the property that is my own, I shall
still love you as devotedly as ever--still as earnestly seek your
hand. But oh! how I long to avoid all the pangs, the mischances, the
anxieties to every one, the ill feeling, the contention, the
animosity, which must ever follow such a struggle as that between your
father and myself--oh, how I long to owe every thing to you, even the
station, even the property, even the fair name that is my own by right
Nay, more, far more, to owe you guidance and direction--to owe you
support and instruction--to owe you all that may improve, and purify,
and elevate me.
"Oh, Emily, dear cousin, let me be your debtor in all things. You who
first gave me the thought of rising above fate, and making myself
worthy of the high fortunes which I have long known awaited me,
perfect your work, redeem me for ever from all that is unworthy, save
me from bitter regrets, and your father from disappointment, sorrow,
and poverty, and render me all that I long to be.
"Yours, and forever,
"JOHN HASTINGS."
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