"Well, some women are able to--just a little," says I. "Maybe you'd get
over that business of that man next door if you was married and had a
few kids of your own running around. You'd be happy with Tom. We'd all
be happy. You'd forget--of course you'd forget. Women are built that
way," says I. "I reckon I know!"
"Curly----" And, though she looked just like she always had, young and
white and beautiful, and fit only to be loved by anybody, her face had
something in it that made her look old, real old, like one of them
statutes in our front yard.
She was twenty-three, and pretty as anything ever made in marble--and
white as anything in marble; but she looked a thousand years old as she
stood there then. There was something in her face that seemed to come
down from 'way back in the past. She was--well, I reckon she was what
she said--a woman!
"Curly," says she, "some women may be able to forget. It's the easiest
way--maybe most of them do it. The average woman lives that way. But I
can't, Curly; I can't--it isn't in my blood. Women like me have got to
follow their own hearts, Curly--no matter what it means.
"I tried with all my heart to lie to Tom tonight. I even told him I
wouldn't answer now--even told him to come back again after while; but I
knew all the time I couldn't lie forever. I knew I could love some
man--a man--but it wasn't for him. I'm like my father and like my
mother, Curly. Do you want to crush the life out of me? Do you want to
make me do something we'd all regret as long as ever we lived?"
She stopped talking then; but, sort of swinging around, she went on:
"It's been but a little while, Curly," says she. "It's been but such a
little time! I don't know whether I can get over it--I don't know
whether I can forget. But, oh, Curly, for one hour let me open my
heart--for just this time let me be a woman!... But it wasn't for him!"
And now she was whispering again.
"I'm a thief, Curly!" says she after a while. "I've stolen your life and
dad's. I've taken all you gave me. I don't deserve it."
"Oh, yes, you do," says I; "you deserved all we done for you. We loved
you, Honey, and we do now."
"But you can't any more, Curly," says she. "I've been a thief. I've
stolen your lives--from you two big, splendid men. But, oh! give me my
hour--the one hour out of all my life.
"I stole from him too--from Tom," says she. "I've taken from him what I
didn't pay for and can't. I never can. At least I can't until I've
had--my hour.
"A woman has to face things all her life, Curly," says she; "and always
she says: 'Well, let it be!' She takes her losses, Curly, and sometimes
she forgets. But if she ever forgets what is in my heart tonight--if she
forgets that--then life is never worth while to her again. There's
nothing to do then--it's all a sham and a fraud. If that's what life
means I don't want to live any more."
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