I tiptoed to the door like a thief and as I took my coat and hat, Gina
called out from the top of the stairs in uncomprehending astonishment.
"Not going—Randolph!" And like a small avalanche she shot down the
stairs.
"Yes—yes—he is going, _bellessa mia_!" firmly shouted Visconti as he
came running towards us. "He is called away—good night—good night!"
"Good night," I said and held out my hand to Gina. But Gina’s manners
are more modern than her father’s. She was dumbfounded and she turned
her back upon me angrily, registering doubtless some standard emotion
from a favorite movie. It was useless to try to placate her. I slipped
out of the door which will never more open for me.
The nightmarish quality of the episode persisted in my consciousness
like a drug throughout the passage homeward, and it was not until I
entered my door and saw a light in my study that reality began to assert
itself.
Reality meant the end—the end of my livelihood, the end of my hopes and
plans—the end of the tether. Like an unfledged boy I must begin to
breast the future all over again. A hero of romance would doubtless at
that moment have thrilled to the struggle with new and seemingly
insuperable obstacles. But alas! I am not a hero of romance! As I
threw my coat upon the hatstand, a great weariness and a deep dejection
fell upon me.
Alicia came out of my study to greet me. As usual she had been waiting
up for me.
"Why on earth aren’t you in bed?" I growled irritably. Alicia scanned my
face amid the shadows cast by the lamplight. "Go to bed, child," I
repeated; "go to bed."
"Something has happened," she murmured, frightened; "something has
happened. Oh, tell me—what was it, Uncle Ranny?"
I looked down at her with a scowl that was meant to be forbidding—a
warning that I was in no mood for triflingness.
She seized my hand, still holding my gaze with that starry look in her
eyes that invariably probes deep and rests in my inmost soul.
"Something has hurt you, Uncle Ranny," she whispered tremulously, "and
you must tell me." Our eyes dwelt together for a space. "Oh, tell me!"
she gulped, with a sudden terror dilating her eyes. "It isn’t—it isn’t
that—man come back!"
"Oh, no!" I shuddered involuntarily at the image she evoked of
Pendleton. "Not that. Thank Heaven, Alicia, you’re no Pollyanna; you
see the worst at once."
"No," I finally muttered, looking away, "I have hurt somebody."
"I can’t believe that," she retorted vehemently. "But if you think
so—Please, please, tell me. It will be so much better, for you, Uncle
Ranny."
I had a sudden impulse to take her in my arms, but the emotion was not
paternal. And—I was to her "Uncle Ranny." All unconscious she was
guarded by her circle of sacred flames. Spasmodically I tore my hand
out of her grasp and walked unsteadily across the room to my table.
"Sit down over there," I motioned her as far away from me as possible.
She stood still without complying.
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