ABOUT a week passed since Foma spoke to Medinskaya. And her image
stood fixedly before Foma by night and by day, awakening in his heart
a gnawing feeling of anxiety. He longed to go to her, and was so much
afflicted over her that even his bones were aching from the desire of
his heart to be near her again. But he was sternly silent; he frowned
and did not care to yield to this desire, industriously occupying
himself with his affairs and provoking in himself a feeling of anger
against the woman. He felt that if he went up to her, he would no longer
find her to be the same as he had left her; something must have changed
within her after that conversation, and she would no longer receive him
as cordially as before, would not smile at him the clear smile that used
to awaken in him strange thoughts and hopes. Fearing that all this was
lost and that something else must have taken its place, he restrained
himself and suffered.
His work and his longing for the woman did not hinder him from thinking
of life. He did not philosophize about this enigma, which was already
stirring a feeling of alarm in his heart; he was not able to argue, but
he began to listen attentively to everything that men said of life, and
he tried to remember their words. They did not make anything clear to
him; nay, they increased his perplexity and prompted him to regard them
suspiciously. They were clever, cunning and sensible--he saw it; in
dealings with them it was always necessary to be on one’s guard; he knew
already that in important matters none of them spoke as they thought.
And watching them carefully, he felt that their sighs and their
complaints of life awakened in him distrust. Silently he looked at
everybody with suspicion, and a thin wrinkle masked his forehead.
One morning his godfather said to him on the Exchange:
“Anany has arrived. He would like to see you. Go up to him toward
evening, and see that you hold your tongue. Anany will try to loosen it
in order to make you talk on business matters. He is cunning, the
old devil; he is a holy fox; he’ll lift his eyes toward heaven, and
meanwhile will put his paw into your pocket and grab your purse. Be on
your guard.”
“Do we owe him anything?” asked Foma.
“Of course! We haven’t paid yet for the barge, and then fifty
five-fathom beams were taken from him not long ago. If he wants
everything at once--don’t give. A rouble is a sticky thing; the longer
it turns about in your hand, the more copecks will stick to it. A
rouble is like a good pigeon--it goes up in the air, you turn around and
see--it has brought a whole flock with it into the pigeon-house.”
“But how can we help paying it now, if he demands it?”
“Let him cry and ask for it--and you roar--but don’t give it to him.”
“I’ll go up there soon.”
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