Indeed, he had all but stopped listening, gazing instead with fixed
intensity upon the mystical substance before him.
'I want to try, Sylviana, if only for the pains it cost me to bring
it here.' He looked at her intently. 'Where Avatar leads, I want
to follow if I can.'
'I can't stop you, but..... Oh, Kalus. I'm so afraid
you'll hurt yourself. And after all we've been through.'
He saw the wisdom of this, and her deep concern. 'What if eat just
one, and you are here with me?'
The endless conflict between safety and wild freedom once more presented
itself. Both felt it clearly. She hesitated, then said.
'If we do it, we do it together.'
'All right.'
Kalus put a bud in his mouth. Sylviana did the same.
***
'This is amazing.'
Roughly an hour had passed, and these words so broke the stillness that
it seemed as if Kalus had then and there invented speech. And indeed,
so far as concerned the virgin sea on which they now sailed, eternal and
boundless, these were the first words, and he and the woman-child, the
true Adam and Eve.
For some time now he had remained as a near statue, only his eyes and
forehead working, studying in alternate wonder his hand, the circle of
stones, then the altar and mirror behind it. Sylviana watched him,
feeling the same awe of the experience, and perhaps to a greater degree,
the accompanying danger. She answered simply.
'Yes.'
Her voice, like a pebble in a pool, touched the glassy waters of his
spirit, sending out ripples of thought and feeling which seemed as
endless as the pool itself. Regaining his center, he became placid with
the wisdom of silence, until the shoots that stirred within him were
ready to blossom once more in true speech. Sylviana was becoming
concerned, but he had not forgotten her.
'All my days,' he said finally, 'I've judged life by the
pale shadow of it in which I've often been forced to live, never
guessing that the heart. . .the very bones of it. . .are ALIVE.' He
paused.
'It seems to me now, as it did when I was a child, that no hope, no
dream is ever fully lost, so long as the least fragment remains alive
inside you. It becomes like a seed---sleeping, dormant. But not dead.
Until, if we can endure, and fight our way to a better place where sun
and water yet flow, it is called gently back to life.'
He looked at her, tears streaming down his face. 'I am alive! And
you, my endless miracle. Are alive, and here with me.'
She took his hand, so close, and pressed it to her lips.
'Be gentle, my loving Kalus. Be gentle. There are still so many
wounds.'
Never, it seemed to him, had she spoken more truly. For he now felt in
the wrenching of his heart, as surely as if the flesh itself ached and
bled, the many scars that lay across him. He became quiet, and put his
head against her, knowing that for all his yearning, patience alone
would heal him, and make those forgotten dreams possible.
Time passed.
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