'Barabbas is my father now. I think it is what you would call
adoption, though to us it is much more than that. The adopted sons of a
childless leader are more dear to him.....' He stopped as emotion
swelled in his throat, and he realized with a sudden pang the truth of
these words. 'Barabbas is my father now.'
'Barabbas,' replied Rawlings thoughtfully. 'Surely that's
not a name given by a machine.'
'Yes. In fact it is. But I too have always thought it strange, and
somehow appropriate, since I learned of the Barabbas in your Bible.'
'It's not MY Bible,' said Rawlings quickly. 'But still, how
do you mean that?' Kalus pondered for a moment, trying to think how
to express it.
'It wasn't Barabbas' fault: that he was freed, and Jesus
crucified. He was only trying to survive. And who can say what his
crime' was that he should have been imprisoned by the Romans, who
seem to me among the greatest criminals of history. And yet for the
simple fact of his presence on that day, and his desire to live rather
than die in agony, he is branded a villain and hated, by those who need
such symbols of hate, and love. Surely Jesus did not hate him.'
At this all were quietly stunned. For until that moment they had
retained the subconscious arrogance that Sylviana first experienced, and
to which she had lately returned: the belief that a rough man without
education could not think or feel as they did, could not possess the
same soul, or depth of feeling.
They were wrong.
'Well said,' came a voice. And for the rest of the afternoon the
questions were not asked as from adult to child, from superior beings to
inferior, but as from man (and woman) to man. Sylviana could only watch
and listen, and tell herself in vain she didn't love him.
Because she had been stung by the affection he showed Kataya, and
refused to admit she was afraid of losing him.
Chapter 41
The next morning Kalus was woken by Kataya, who came to the secluded
clear space where he had made his bed on softer ground, with the
sleeping bag that Rawlings had given him. In the first light and waking
life of morning she was beautiful, and sad, and it was only with an
effort that he reminded himself he was not free, to take her then and
there, and make love among the sacred rites of Spring. But she showed
no such inclination, saying only.
'The Children will go North today, if Ishmael speaks the truth. I
want to say goodbye, and I want you to be there with me.'
Her tone was passive, and yet deeply serious. He couldn't fully
understand the reason, but consented, giving to her, unquestioningly,
the next hours of his life---giving as only the innocent can, without
exacting a price, or expecting anything in return.
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