But a sin of omission can be every bit as deadly, and the venomous
spider does not stop to ask the nature of its victim before it bites, a
soft sting that is hardly felt, until the poison starts to work.
Neither of them had realized the gift their isolation and struggle had
been, or how much more complicated love becomes when lives are
sheltered, and hearts confronted by a baffling array of choices.
Perhaps that was why, as Smith had remarked to Kalus, the well-off never
seemed to be much in love, but only to play at life. His love with
Sylviana had been simple and direct, a beautiful and necessary outgrowth
of their world. Now their reality had been altered, and something
precious lost.
It should also be said that in dealing with a dark, embittered soul like
William's (and to a lesser degree, her own), Sylviana was every bit
as naive as she had been about the primal, life and death existence of
the Valley. Had she known for one minute the vicious hatred that he
held for her, or the imminent danger of the course she was now pursuing,
she would have fled from him and never looked back.
Because to William she had become a symbol of all the protected,
thoughtless sheep whose blind acceptance of personal comfort and
political ruthlessness had made the destruction of the Earth and the
murder of his love possible, even inevitable. He would listen as she
spoke of her days at Ithaca, and of her soft and sheltered childhood,
with apparent interest and appreciation, all the while choking back his
passion, and plotting her destruction. In his mind she was the
pretty little college whore', and the very strength of his desire
for her only intensified his wish to wound her, as he had been wounded,
to punish and destroy her, as his love had been destroyed. He hated her
with a malice so deep it could fain love without detection, and wallow
in thoughts of sexual violence without remorse. The spirit had been
charred to ash inside him, leaving only the bestial desires of the
twisted animal: lust and hate and vengeance.
But his plans were not yet ripe, and like the cat, he would play with
his victim before killing it. And perhaps too, though the chance was
faint, the smallest part of his conscience remained, and needed further
goading before ceasing to rebel.
For her own part, though she might have wished it otherwise, Sylviana
could feel nothing for him but pity and a kind of awe. At times the
obsidian hardness of his eyes would push her senses toward the
protective realm of fear; but always his words, and her own twisted
purpose called them back. She was neither attracted nor repulsed, only
determined.
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