'And what is their crime, that makes them the object of universal
scorn and reprisal? They're VICTIMS, vulnerable, bringing out the
predatory instinct in all of us. And more than that, they commit the
most unforgivable sin of all: they make us look at ourselves, and see
something about our pretty little world that we don't like. Because
they do, in fact, what the rest of us do in spirit: sell themselves,
body and soul, for MONEY. Only they lack the skills and social graces,
like the ones you learned in college, to be subtle and self-justifying
about it. They are OBVIOUS, and much too real, an easy target for
nearly everyone. And the human animal never misses easy prey.'
Sylviana heard the words---stark and depressing enough---but what gave
them their power were the images her own memory provided. She saw it
all: the rooster-like pimps grabbing gaudily dressed women by the hair,
and without remorse throwing them into the back seats of still gaudier
cars, for later punishment, which no doubt included beating and rape.
And if her head happened to strike the roof, starting a rivulet of
blood.....
And she remembered the murder she had so nearly witnessed: saw the chalk
outline that the homicide detectives had drawn on the sidewalk as the
paramedics arrived to wheel her into a waiting ambulance, her death a
foregone conclusion, the eyes still terrified though the life even now
fled from them. A face once young and fair: a sixteen-year-old runaway
from nameless suburbs, driven from her home perhaps by an abusive
parent, drawn to the city like a moth to flame. And brought to the same
end. While the jagged man the police had cuffed and were dragging away,
screamed in bursts of occasional coherence, 'All women are
whores!'
And she remembered too, even as he said, the thoughts that she had
always used to dismiss such women, and the hopeless tragedy of their
lives. HOW CAN THEY DO IT? THEY MUST JUST TURN OFF THEIR MINDS, AND
NOT FEEL ANYTING..... IT'S AWFUL, BUT SHE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER THAN
TO WALK THE STREETS ALONE. As if this was something she had done of her
own volition, and against the warnings of loved ones and friends. And
she thought of her own plan, which was worse. Not to sleep with a man
for money, which could at least claim the honest shred of need. But for
revenge.
And coming back to herself for a moment, she realized with a sudden
shock that this same plan, along with the subconscious safety valve she
had built into it, were now completely out of hand. She had no idea
where they were (in relation to anything else), only where they
weren't: within hearing range of Kalus, on whom she had relied to
protect her at need. As the dagger of fear sank an inch lower into her
breast.
'You're right William,' she said hurriedly. 'And it's
horrible. But please, please take me somewhere else.' Sheer movement
seemed the only defense from the razor---
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