'Skither lives his whole life, an unselfish warrior for the good, and
dies by violence far from his home. Kamela does what is expected of
her, Akar does what he feels in his heart, and both are punished and
bereft. An eight year old boy---' He wept. 'An eight year old
boy, Sylviana, makes the one mistake of his life..... And he is KILLED
for it. While your God.....' All at once he let out a roar.
'WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!' he shouted at the walls.
'What gives you the right to make hard rules, and pass out life and
death in judgment? You are not wise, you are not strong. YOU ARE NOT
GOD! I reject this fear! I reject this lie! I will not serve the
fearful creation of MEN!'
And suddenly the burden was lifted. He stood shaking, his face wet.
But in that brief moment when the life inside him had shouted back at
the Night, rejecting it and all its works, he was free, and once more
true to himself, to the God that was in him. His doubts remained, but
he would not follow that tortured path one step further.
Sylviana went to him and embraced him, this time without reservation.
His grateful arms wrapped around her. He dried his eyes against her
neck and shoulder, then stepped back, looking down.
'I'm sorry,' he said. 'I feel as if I've condemned us
all.'
'Or saved us. Don't you see?'
'But if you don't believe, and I don't.....'
'I never said I didn't believe in God, Kalus. I just don't
believe in religion. Faith is about Faith. Religion is about
control.'
'But---'
'Listen to me, Kalus. You don't have to punish yourself to
believe in something positive, something larger than yourself. You
don't have to choose between Hells.'
'But the Bible---'
'Was written, translated, and ALTERED by men. Saint Paul may have
been a good man, but he never ever met Jesus; and I believe that
Saints' Jerome and Augustine distorted Christ's words almost
beyond recognition. Between them, and with lots of help from the
Catholic Church---Jesus never said anything about chastity, or that the
bodies God gave us were inherently evil---they set loose a fear of
devils and damnation that was the scourge of the western world for two
thousand years: from the slaughters of Charlemagne, to the Inquisition
and the Holocaust.
'You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.'
THAT'S what Jesus said, and THAT'S what I believe. There is truth
everywhere---in Shakespeare, in Dickens, in YOU. You know as much as
anyone, about your own life, infinitely more.' She softened, and put
a hand to his cheek. 'Trust your heart, Kalus. That's what
it's there for.'
He looked into her eyes, and the light of day came back to him. 'You
are very wise. I should have come to you sooner.'
'Some lessons we have to learn for ourselves. You taught me
that.'
'Do you think.....' He struggled again, before the question that
lay behind all others. 'Do you think that you could ever. . .love
me, Sylviana?'
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