Then Kate came in from church, and Pete welcomed her with a shout.
Philip rose and bowed in silence. The marks of the prayers of the week
were on her face, but they had brought her no comfort. She had been
constantly promising herself consolation from religion, but every fresh
exercise of devotion had seemed to tear open the wound from which she
bled to death.
She removed her cloak and stepped to the cradle. The child was sleeping
peacefully, but she convinced herself that it must be unwell. Her own
hands were cold and moist, and when she touched the child she thought
its skin was clammy. Presently her hands became hot and dry, and when
she touched the child again she thought its forehead was feverish.
“I'm sure she's ill,” she said.
“Chut! love,” said Pete; “no more ill than I am.”
But, to calm her fears, he went off for the doctor. The doctor was away
in the country, and was not likely to be back for hours. Kate's fears
increased. Every time she looked at the child she applied to it the
symptoms of her own condition.
“My child is dying--I'm sure it is,” she cried.
“Nonsense, darling,” said Pete. “Only an hour ago it was looking up as
imperent as a tomtit.”
At last a new terror seized her, and she cried, “My child is dying
unbaptized.”
“Well, we'll soon mend that, love,” said Pete. “I'll be going off for
the parson.” And he caught up his hat and went out.
He called on Parson Quiggin, who promised to follow immediately. Then he
went on to Sulby to fetch Cæsar and Grannie and some others, having no
fear for the child's life, but some hope of banishing Kate's melancholy
by the merriment of a christening feast.
Meanwhile, Philip and Kate were alone with the little one, save in the
intervals of Nancy's coming and going between the hall and the kitchen.
She was restless, and full of expectation, starting at every sound and
every step. He could see that she had gone whole nights without sleep,
and was passing through an existence that was burning itself away.
Do what he would to explain her sufferings as the common results of
childbirth, he could not help resolving them in the old flattering
solution. She was paying the penalty of having married the wrong man.
And she was to blame. Whatever the compulsion put upon her, she ought to
have withstood it. There was no situation in life from which it was
not possible to escape. Had _he_ not found a way out of a situation
essentially the same? Thus a certain high pride in his own conduct took
possession of him even in the presence of Kate's pain.
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