“The child, Kate? Did you say the child?”
She did not answer at once, and then she muttered, with her head down,
“Didn't I tell you there was something you had never guessed?”
“And is it that?” he said in a fearful whisper.
“Yes.”
“You are sure? You are not deceiving yourself? This is not hysteria?”
“No.”
“You mean that the child----”
“Yes.”
His questions had come in gasps, like short breakers out of a rising
sea; her answers had fallen like the minute-gun above it. Then, in the
silence, Pete's voice came through the wall. He was singing a rough old
ditty--
“It was to Covent Gardens I chanced for to go,
To see some of the prettiest flowers which in the gardens grow.”
Nancy came in with a scuttle of coals. “The lil one's asleep,” she said,
going down on her knees at the fire. She had left the door ajar, and
Pete's song was rolling into the room--
“The first was lovely Nancy, so delicate and fair,
The other was a vargin, and she did laurels wear.”
“Grannie bathed her, and she's like a lil angel in the cot there,” said
Nancy. “And, 'Dear heart alive, Grannie,' says I,' the straight she's
like her father when she's sleeping.'”
Nancy brushed the hearth and went off. As she closed the door, Pete's
voice ebbed out.
Philip's lips trembled, his eyes wandered over the floor, he grew very
pale, he tried to speak and could not. All his self-pride was overthrown
in a moment The honour in which he had tried to stand erect as in a
suit of armour was stripped away. Unwittingly he had been laying up
an account with Nature. He had forgotten that a sin has consequences.
Nature did not forget. She had kept her own reckoning. He had struggled
to believe that after all he was a moral man, a free man; but Nature was
a sterner moralist; she had chained him to the past, she had held him to
himself.
He was still by the fire with his head down. “Did you know this before
you were married to Pete?” he asked, without looking up.
“Hadn't I wronged him enough without that?” she answered.
“But did you think of it as something that might perhaps occur?”
“And if I did, what then?”
“If you had told me, Kate, nothing and nobody should have come between
us--no,” he said in a decisive voice, “not Pete nor all the world.”
“And wasn't it your own duty to remember? Was it for me to come to you
and say, 'Philip, something may happen, I am frightened.'”
Was this the compulsion that had driven her into marriage with the wrong
man? Was it all hysteria? Could she be sure? In any case she could not
think this awful thought and continue to live with her husband.
“You are right,” he said, with his head still down. “You cannot live
here any longer. This life of deception must end.”
“Then you will take me away, Philip?”
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