He remembered an appointment hastily, and went to keep it. Sam Branstone
stumped for a reply was an unusual phenomenon, and she con gratulated
herself again that it worked. It worked, but slowly. She was not
impatient, but he was still doing unchanged the things she hated to see
him do, and she wanted the change to come. She doubted that it would
ever come by talk alone. One did not convert by conversation.
She had intended to say so much, to keep a steady pressure on him, and
she couldn’t do it, partly because her point of view was difficult of
definition, partly because she thought no talk, no matter how inspired,
could change him of itself. She did not know of Anne, who had talked
and kept the pres sure up, and put sacrifice behind the talk even to the
point of thrusting her hand into the fire; but Effie, too, had sacrifice
in mind. Anne’s sacrifice had failed. It wasn’t, perhaps, the right
sacrifice: it was, at any rate, the immortal commonplace, the sacrifice
of the older generation to the younger, of the mother to the son, of
age to youth. Spectacular, heroic as it was, it was yet in the scheme of
things, and it is the sacrifice of youth to youth which can surprise by
unexpectedness.
For some it is a sacrifice to cease talking even when they are convinced
that talk is futile. If Effie was one of these, she made that little
sacrifice at once. She never told him that his life was mean and ugly
and despicable, his triumphs worthless, his success a failure, his
highest ambition to know that people grovelled to him, his money and his
power. She did not say these things, but neither did she yield an inch
of her attitude which implied them.
“I’ll win,” she told herself, “I’ll win.”
By now she was crusading for the soul of Sammy Branstone, and all the
while her passion grew, fed as much by that in him which irritated her
as by what attracted. She accepted the fact that he was married and
discounted it. It was one with the other irritants, mattering less to
her, for it was irremovable. She could neglect the wife: what mattered
was the man. She must bring beauty to his life.
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