Sam was still staring at her. “You!” he said. “What can you do?”
“I can see you and Effie happy, and I dunno as owt else matters.” It
did not matter what the cost was to Anne. “When you used to come home to
your tea from Mr. Travers’ office, what you left was always good enough
for me, and I can stomach your leavings still.”
It startled Effie, who had thought herself a specialist in sacrifice.
This was the very ferocity of self-denial.
So far, tired and overstrained, Effie had found peace in resigning the
leadership to Anne, but here was a lead she could not follow. It was not
that she mistook Anne’s purpose or doubted her capacity. Her faith in
Anne was young but adamantine, and she knew that if Anne replaced
Sam with Ada, and made herself heir to the Marbeck plan, she would
unquestionably do for Ada what Sam had undertaken to do. But the thing
was simply not good enough.
“No, Mrs. Branstone, no,” she said firmly.
“Get oft’ with you,” said Anne impolitely. “I can tackle Ada with one
hand tied behind my back.”
“Of course,” Sam agreed, “you could, but you are not going to. Ada’s my
job.”
“I can be pig-headed as well as you, my lad,” Anne menaced him.
“It’s not that, mother.”
“No, it isn’t that,” said Effie, conceiving perhaps that it was time for
her to enter into this tragicomedy of rivalry in self-surrender. “Sam’s
right. Ada does matter, and it is I who am the failure, I who have
broken faith, I who was arrogant. I thought that I could bear a torch,
and I can only bear a child. But I know now what I have to do. I can go
away. I can disappear.”
It seemed to Anne that this was serious because obviously it was a way
out; but she thought it a way much more appalling in prospect than the
plan she had proposed for herself of “taking Ada on.” She took alarm. In
another than Effie it might have been heroics, but Effie’s was not the
stuff that mouths bravado. Anne granted that, and saw a tragic chasm
yawn She signalled her alarm to Sam, who answered it with a glance which
made appeal to her, whilst yielding nothing of his obstinacy.
“If you go away,” he said, “my mother goes with you. I’ve meant that
from the first.”
Anne nodded without enthusiasm. Certainly that was a solution and
equally not the solution. It gave Sam to Ada, and Effie, it
appeared, was not seeing it as a solution at all. There were strange
possibilities, Anne thought, in this young woman, and she did not want
them to be tested too far. Effie was not a talker, and when she said
a thing she did not overstate. There was danger. Well, Anne was
forewarned, and addressed herself in her most humorous, common-sense
manner to laugh it out of court. One can deal with danger in worse ways
than to apply to it the acid--ridicule.
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