|ONLY by long service does one become an artist, but one becomes married
by a simple ceremony. It is the tragedy of marriage, which is the
most difficult of all the arts, that most people come to it without
apprenticeship. Perhaps the popularity of widows as brides is due to the
fact that the widow is a widow: that she has been broken in to marriage:
that she has not everything to learn: that one, at any rate, of the
contracting parties, is expert. There is much to be said for the policy
of the “trial trip.”
Courtship, if intimate enough, may be a fairish substitute, bowdlerized,
as it were, for a “trial trip,” but when Sam married Ada he knew
pitiably little about her.
He thought that she was wonderful. Not only had he to think it, but he
actually did think it. He had to think it because only for a prodigy
among women could he have treated his mother as he did. He had thought
her crazy when she put her hand into the lire, but he knew it was
heroic. If she were crazy, it was for love for him, and at the core, he
loved her too and felt ashamed of himself, but Ada stood between them,
and he was not going to give up Ada. Then he was busy, time wore on,
custom blunted the prick of conscience, and it finally became a habit
either not to think of Anne at all, or to think comfortably of her as
happy enough with Madge.
And he actually thought Ada wonderful because the conditions of
his courtship fought for her. He was visibly prospering; he liked
prosperity; it was Ada who had initiated his prosperity; and she was
glamorous for that. Again, he was very busy in those days with the first
steps of his new business, too occupied to play the diligent lover, and
saw her very fitfully. So seen, she did not lose the wonder of surprise,
but came upon him freshly with each of their meetings, able to parade
for each some new attraction from her slender stock of charm. She kept
their intercourse egregiously correct, and he thought her mystery was
infinite. She hid her shallowness behind affected modesty, knowing that
an intimate courtship would discover to him that there was nothing to
discover, and attracted by aloofness. It was immensely clever in its
short-winded way: a cleverness that lasted the course of courtship,
but evaporated when the tape--the altar--was reached. It did not seem
necessary to Ada to go on being clever once that ring was on her finger.
She was married, she had achieved: she was clever for the spurt, and
had no cleverness left, for the Marathon Race. And Sam had many
preoccupations in those days which prevented him from thinking too much
about Ada.
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