Her liking for the painter had therefore, not unnaturally, its fits.
It was subject in a measure to the nature of the engagements she
had--that is, to the degree of pleasure she expected from them; it
was subject, as we have seen, to skilful battery from the guns of
her chaperon’s entrenchment; and more than to either was it subject
to those delicate changes of condition which in the microcosm are as
frequent, and as varied both in kind and degree, as in the macrocosm.
The spirit has its risings and settings of sun and moon, its seasons,
its clouds and stars, its solstices, its tides, its winds, its storms,
its earthquakes--infinite vitality in endless fluctuation. To rule
these changes, Florimel had neither the power that comes of love,
nor the strength that comes of obedience. What of conscience she had
was not yet conscience toward God, which is the guide to freedom,
but conscience toward society, which is the slave of a fool. It was
no wonder then that Lenorme, believing--hoping she loved him, should
find her hard to understand. He said _hard_; but sometimes he meant
_impossible_. He loved as a man loves who has thought seriously,
speculated, tried to understand; whose love therefore is consistent
with itself, harmonious with its nature and history, changing only
in form and growth, never in substance and character. Hence the idea
of Florimel became in his mind the centre of perplexing thought; the
unrest of her being metamorphosed on the way, passed over into his,
and troubled him sorely. Neither was his mind altogether free of the
dread of reproach. For self-reproach he could find little or no ground,
seeing that to pity her much for the loss of consideration her marriage
with him would involve, would be to undervalue the honesty of his love
and the worth of his art; and indeed her position was so independently
based that she could not lose it even by marrying one who had not the
social standing of a brewer or a stockbroker; but his pride was uneasy
under the foreseen criticism that his selfishness had taken advantage
of her youth and inexperience to work on the mind of an ignorant
girl--a criticism not likely to be the less indignant that those who
passed it would, without a shadow of compunction, have handed her over,
body, soul, and goods, to one of their own order, had he belonged to
the very canaille of the race.
The painter was not merely in love with Florimel: he loved her. I
will not say that he was in no degree dazzled by her rank, or that he
felt no triumph, as a social nomad camping on the No-Man’s-Land of
society, at the thought of the justification of the human against the
conventional, in his scaling of the giddy heights of superiority, and,
on one of its topmost peaks, taking from her nest that rare bird in the
earth, a landed and titled marchioness. But such thoughts were only
changing hues on the feathers of his love, which itself was a mighty
bird with great and yet growing wings.
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